Yesterday had a minor quarrel with daddy yet again.Cus been going hm late recently ,argh but im gonna change.For da sake of less quarrels and him to dote on me more.Im gonna be a daddy's gal,wth.LOL

The next day,he actually bought me to sakae sushi cus i love jap food.So unexpected but sweet.I had sakae 3 times within a wk,omg.haha.Darn i've been eating lots of good food for da past few days,im so gonna become a fatso.XD

Anyway im utterly upset today too.It's just so unexpected and it's a great loss of mine.A once wonderful friendship just gotta end it this way,how i hate it.But things arent up to me to decide,however memories shall be kept in my heart.I shall wait in anticipation then..

Anyway on sat we celebrated jasmine's bday.Gals outing,weeee~!It was fun!

First we went for lunch,at sakae.Lol,yummilicious.Afterwards headed to play pool,kinda fun,embarassing for me at times.Haha.But maddy they all quite pro.

Afterwards jas & i went to k-box,fun also,damn nonsensical.Then ard 1 my fren came to fetch us,went to to this club,RAV at boat quay.Da atmosphere & misic was good,heh i got her a cake as well.She was real ecstatic cus she hadnt had a decent bday cake for some time.I was glad that she enjoyed her day,cus she wanna have a memorable one.

We left ard like 3 cus after dat was gays nite,aha actually was curious to see how it's like,but they say it's gross.Hence we left for ktv-ing again,at party world.Pretty fun also,and we enjoyed singing.

By da time da place close,it's like 6 am alr,and we went to geylang for dimsum,ahh delicious also.Heh.Then jevan sent us hm,went to jas's hse to bum ard and we fell aslp.After waking up,she came over to my place and off to sakae for dinner again.LOL.It's just a fun day,met up with maddy also,like finally.Hope to have another gals outing again soon.

Anyway we took some pics,but da most think is bb,she's sucha zilian kuang,cant stand her.=D

Bb & jas

Me & vainpot

My dearest ones.=)

un-glam us.We have ugly sides too .xp

She's a happy gal,got her bday kiss from me. :D

There's other pics also,but with them.Anyway cant upload da nice neoprints we took,cus i made my scanner spoil .-_-

*Sighs....... =/

Daddy lectured me yet again,arent he sick of it.Argh nvm,guess it's my fault.He's like might as well dun study ,cus by looking at me right now.Not that i dun wanna study alrite,is i donno wat i want yet.So he's giving me 3 days to think over wat exactly do i want.

I'm sure i wouldnt wanna retake o's,so it's like go some private sch like mdis.I think that's wat i want,get a diploma,den pursue advanced diploma & degree i guess.Then can go out and work in da society alr.

But syafiq wanna take mass comm,i want also ,but somehow to me business like got better prospect in da future.Thus im gonna forgo taking mass comm,so sad cant be with him.

Well i hope rp will reply soon,if cant get into rp then no choice,guess i'll just take that route.It's my life after all,shant regret or anything.Damn,it's just vexing.

I'm deprived of sleep but yet i'm gonna post this entry first.Well didnt really had time,so yea.Just gonna briefly talk abt yest and today.

Oh yesterday i finally met mommie after so damn long,like more than half a yr.It's just so nice to see her again,my dearest mimi.LOl.Anyway in da afternoon had jap cuisine,cus i love it.Afterwards was shopping,so much stuff to buy man,but not enuff time so bought some stuff only.

When night approaches,we went to fetch my bro and headed to clementi to have seafood for dinner,it was delicious definitely,my fave too.Haha.Soon after left,but i stay out cus didnt feel like going hm.

Anyway for da day,imma happy gal. =)

Today was feeling lethargic cus hadn't catch any sleep da night before.Afternoon patrick fetch all of us and we headed for cine,took neoprints too,cute.And we had jap cuisine for lunch cum dinner,like again,i just wun get sick of it.Lol.

During dinner,we are like got nth better to do.Shall upload beebee's & patrick's photos next time cus they haven send me.They keep asking us to take nonsensical shots,got video also.haha.Meanwhile here's me & da tallie funny guy,wk.

Pig faces!But obviously he looks more like one.lol


Being dramatic,he's suppose to be da gal,eeew . -_-


Good buddy,funny chap =D


Haha just natural,no clowning ard.

Soon after we went to catch ,'Date movie' really hilarious .Everyone's laughing,like non-stop.But i fell aslp halfway,just doze off,couldnt control.>.<

We wanted to play pool initially but a slight change of plan,so went to j8's cafe cartel to chill and chit-chat.After some time,we left,and patrick sent us home.Overall a pretty fun day! :)

Last night chatted with bb_pikachu,till wee hrs like 6.30.Pretty fun ,talk abt loads of stuff .From gossiping to our past r/s,experiences,weird habits.We found out that we were quite alike,many things in common.Cute ladies i have got.

Anyway was suppose to wake up early but overslept yet again.So met up with derrick,my best buddy cus damn long haven got time to catch up,felt pretty glad.We watched 'Dorm',it was a horrible movie i can say,no kick man.LOL.Storyline was so-so only,not worth watching after all.

Oh yea,today wasnt my lucky day.I fell at home,like wth .Haha.BUt it's perfectly normal for a klutz like me i guess.

Initially it hurts alil only,but it worsen later.It hurts so much that i cant really walk,walk kinda slow,somemore gotta bear with da pain.At night,2 of my toes turned blueblack,even da back of it.How terrible! >.<

But i cant stay at home to wait till it recover,going out for da next few days.Darn,poor me,poor toes. Gee anyway i'm meeting mommie tmr,yay like finally. =D

Well just caught a cold yesterday,feeling sneeze-ish..Ahh so dreadful !Everything's still not going right.It's like worsening i guess,more & more problems arising.
It's been bothering me soooo much that at times i feel that i couldnt take it and at loss wat to do or how to deal with it.

It just sucks when there's enuff prob and more are coming on.Wth.It's hard to relate every single thing to someone too,not even best fren.I just gotta bottle it up.I soooo hate that kinda feeling but cant help it.

When things between daddy & me are gonna be okay,something would just appear and hence creating more 'conflict'.Today yet again,alil like da most severe scolding or lecture,he even talked abt me moving out & sever ties all that. =/ U guys wun believe but yea his words are really harsh.It never fails to cause this 'piercing thru my heart & soul' feeling.Exaggerating but well,it's true.

But i think i've disappointed & upset him as well,i donno why either.I'm like dumb la,i feel.Always doing things w/o thinking or whatsoever.I kinda hate myself now,for e time being.Like useless cum sickening fella?Argh warteva~

Yea mood been pretty sucky too,tend to get irritated easily.Darn i hate da situation now.It's da first time ever in my life i felt so screwed up & stuff,and felt it's meaningless to live on.But shant be so weak,just take things as it comes then.It's nice to have ppl to comfort too,it certainly lessen my sadness.

I'm simply feeling somehow like evan,'dead',or rather numb.Nth can cheer me up & makes me forget abt everything.I'm a weakling too,hopes to escape from reality,immature thinking i've got,but who cares.


Melancholy struck me...


(ps)I aint trying to be emo or dramatic,this is just a tough period for me.Soon it'l be over i guess and i shall post abt happy stuff instead..

Damn,daddy gave me a dressing down.F*** it,i sooooo hate him or rather his scoldings.He just ranted on & on abt my studies etc,But wth,he actually digress and talk abt some untrue stuff,he's super duper unreasonable la.

But so upsetting lo,cus some words were rather harsh,he actually said i'm one of da worst ppl he've ever seen,like useless and stuff.Omg,tell me which parent say that to their child.He's one freaking jerk,sucky daddy..

If i had da ability or rather can depend on myself,i swear i'll leave this place immediately,i can even sever ties with him,who needs a daddy anyway.Mommie's enuff ='(

Omg,i cant stand it man.Emotions ruled over me,constant crying which leads to mental breakdown.But it doesnt help at all.

He keeps stressing me,but dun even help me think,how am i suppose to know wat to do.He also know i've got no vision of da future & also donno wat i intend to do if i cant get into poly.He leaves it all to me.Wth!

I feel like a good-for-nothing .=(

But i still hope things could change for da better,ahhhh wishful thinking...(this entry just shows how weak i am,but like who doesnt have a weak side.)

I realised that i haven been blogging for like kinda long,well laziness just got over me.

For da one wk plus i've benn going out & stuff,nth much though .It's just beach,shopping or chilling out with frens.Oh yea i watched final destination 3 & big momma's house too.

Final destination 3 is such a sick show,really!Gosh real gruesome la,that show just makes me feel freaked out ..Anyway those few ways are like da worst way ever to die.Totally eeeww,imagine u're being set aflame when u just wanna get a tan in da machine thing,or u were just sitting at da car and suddenly ur head like explode cus of some huge impact when a truck crashes onto urs,with all da brain scattered around.Damn it was bloody,almost couldnt take it,but well i coverred my eyes at some pt,too bloody for me.x)

Big momma's house 2 was hilarious,like a must-watch .

Oh yea anyway my jae application was unsuccessful,had to appeal & stuff.I'm worried too,cus i'm afraid i got nowhere to go .So hopefully i can get into rp at least.

Well have been on bad terms with daddy too,man he totally sucks sometimes,super unreasonable.I sooo dun wanna live here,but i still gotta depend on him.*sigh
I just gotta bear with it.=/

Sometimes when i do some self-reflection,im kinda useless.Like a spoilt brat who cant do anything.Damn..Anyway some stuff are really vexing,so for da time being i dun wanna think so much,let it be.

I simply love my gals,they're da ones who's always there for me.It feels really nice,and they're almost like real sisters to me.I'm glad i have such great ppl by my side.=)

Playing volleyball
Candid shot


The peacock we saw :]

Beachmates =)

(Ps)photos are damn limited cus some are in my camcorder & i donno how to upload..Lol =D