After two days,time for recreational activities again!

Gahhh,hope I can at least pass the two remaining supp papers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NANA! :)

I wonder why human are born so sensitive, in some cases which others are over-sensitive.Many issues could arise because of this bad trait which I personally label it.

Indeed I'm really unhappy towards something because it has accumulated till I cannot stand it,but well I'm just gonna put it behind me.I really cant stand people who scolds a whole load of shit and come apologising after that.What's done cannot be undone and so what's said cannot be taken back.I'm not some bloody shithead for anyone to scold/insult.I'm human,a person filled with emotions & feelings.

I know when one is mad,they tend to just blabber whatever stuff.But for me,that reason is not valid enough.I guess different people have different level of emotional intelligence quotient (EQ).

By right,I should get really mad when I'm being hurled by vulgarities & insulted.But yea, I think blowing my top for that isn't worth it. As long as I'm clear against my conscience,I dont give a shit about how others think.Cause I'm living my own life,not anyone else's.And I'm no longer some naive little girl for people to toy with.

Lastly,I'm not a god damn fucking materialistic girl.I hate people to malign me.In my eyes,monetary issue is not of top priority.People who knows me well will understand.Too bad if anyone choose to judge me that way,it only means you dont really know me well enough after all.What a disappointment. And MONEY cant buy everything.

At times,I need to get an attitude check as well.Anyway I'm just glad that at least things are better now.

Sometimes I feel that nothing really matters at all,like there's no priorities in life.I've got nothing to look forward to in the future.I guess I should have a goal or something.

Oh well,I've done extremely badly for my first sem.I dont think anyone could have done that badly.I'm just not cut out for anything related to IT/Maths,but yea that's not a good excuse.I need to put in arduous effort to improve my grades.I'd hate to see Daddy disappointed again.

Boohoo,a boring week ahead.Mugging & more mugging.What the hell.Sighs,I really hope to pass the supp papers.Toodles~

On the 14th,we had sort of a lil' party thing.Overall,it was a great day. :)

• Gold class movie at Vivo."No reservations" was worth the money.Catherine Zeta Jones was awesome.A light-hearted movie for all.Nothing really fantastic tho',I guess 30 bucks wasnt worth it.The only good thing was the seat is comfy & there's blanket provided. Verdict: 3/5
  
  


• Hairstyling at 'Xpect Studio' at somerset area.I kinda like the hairstylists there,cause they provide rather good advices.Ohh I'm so gonna perm my hair when it grows even longer!Curls are lovely.And Geri got her Lionking hair.Heh!Verdict:3.5/5
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• Dinner at Ritz Carlton Hotel.The dinner was splendid,especially the lobsters,seafood & not forgetting the yummy desserts! :D Their service was really good,needless to say cause it's a 6 star hotel.Verdict: 4.5/5

• After dinner,headed to Swissotel for a short break before clubbing.It was at 66th storey and the scenery was superb! Oh and the room was amazing.I love the bathtub most cause you can soak in it & also watch the tv positioned just at the front at the same time.Cool.
  

Verdict: 4.8/5

Time for party,and so we headed to the club.I saw like many familiar faces there.Alright shall party again soon.

The party at VD was boring.But glad that I had gera lessy's company.Anyway will update again.

I'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings recently.

Wonder what's got into me,perhaps I tend to think too much.I just wanna live a carefree life and be happy everyday.But life can't be sailing smoothly all the time.

I hate to have regrets,so even if I do regret I'd just put it behind me and not bother.But still,I regretted for some of the things I did.Sometimes it's not that I want,but it just happens like that.When you know you might be doing something wrong,either you go with it or leave suavely.

Is it selfishness or being too self-centered?That you acheive your own happiness regardless of other people's welfare at heart.I guess there are times when human tend to be selfish.Probably sometimes you're too carried away by the feeling that you forget about the consequences that it's gonna bring or what it'd be like in the future.

Alright no point pondering so much,just live the life you want but with no regrets.

I believe in Karma,just wondering when it will come to me.

All the above is just some random stuff,not pinpointing anything.I want a short vacation,a sweet escape from the complexities of the world.

"A smiling face doesn't always means a smiling heart." :) / :(

29th AUGUST 2007
A significant day,as it marks another ending to our story.

Before I start typing,tears are already welled up in my eyes and it wont stop streaming down my cheeks.

How many of us have actually experienced the sweetness of true love and yet the despondency from the break up.Well,I did.

Alright as you have all guessed,we broke up again already.I know it's quite out of the blue as we seem blissfully in love.Blame it on me,I'm the selfish/bad/heartless one.

I know this could be one of the biggest mistake that I'd ever make and I might even live with the greatest regret.As I could be letting go of 'the one' for me.But still,I believe in FATE.

Sometimes when things doesnt work out anymore,you have no choice at all.Yes yes,I know some of you might say that things can always be solved/improved etc.But are you even me?Do you even know how I feel or what I have gone through?

I'm not saying that he treats me badly and all,he did not.It's just that I can sense that it's different from before.All the little different things just makes the change unquestionably distinguishable.This,I cannot deceive myself.There's other factors as well but yea...

Finally when I muster the courage to say the hateful 'break up',at that instant I could feel my heart ache.You've no idea how much it hurts me to push you away as well.Inside my heart,it's aching so badly.But I cant be soft-hearted and let things drag on.If it drags on,it'll only brings more pain and misery.

All recollections of our memories worsen the pain but still all these lovely memories will be etched in my heart forever.No one would love me like you do,thank you for everything.You taught me all about love.

I feel really remorseful.Letting go of someone you love might be the hardest thing on earth.I'm sorry for everything.But I swear I'm not fooling you or even treating you like a toy.And also it's not for my goddamn freedom.

Whenever I read his blog,I'll go all soft and emotional.Sometimes I wish this is just an illusion,but this is reality.That's life,it could bring happiness/euphoria/joy/sorrows/pain/agony etc.Very often,we can conjure our own happiness but at the same time we could destroy it with our own hands as well.

Nevertheless I still wish you happiness,I do care for you.You told me,'I'll be there for you,this I swear to you." I'll be there for you when you need my help or anything as well.

Often we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

A love lost,with nothing left but fond memories.
And these memories shall stay.Irreplaceable <3

(A video which I created ages ago.)

When you're gone,the pieces of my heart are missing you.

Yooohooo~ I'm back again,finally found the time to update.

Anyway the family & class chalet was alright only,wasnt like so damn fun.But still great times spent with the people.

Oh my god,I'm tanned again!Argh! Hate it,it wasnt easy to become slightly fairer,and now all effort from staying out from the sun has come to naught.;(

Anyway my cousins and their family have gone back to Holland already,really sad cause their stay of duration is really short.Well,have to wait till probably 2 years later then I'll get to see them.

Finally I'm heading to Sentosa on friday,with gera lessy. But strictly, no suntanning for me!

I love the 3 of them. :D

I'll miss you two,JAMIE & JANE. <3