I'm so glad that I'm able to do the math paper,I think I can pass.It's strange that I'm alil' confident when it comes to Math,first time.At least a c6 I hope.Anyway friday went out with Minmin,Adelia & Celine,dress outing.Ha,funny la they.Anyway went to eat & head to party world again.But that day ktv session damn boring.LOL. Smth funny happen la,cannot stand it.So kuku.

We went to Joo chiat to have frog porridge again,so yummy.But I realised that the way they kill frogs is damn gross,first they use scissors to cut off the head then snip off the palms all that.And lastly peel the skin off.Eeew~But they taste oh-so-good.Minmin left for chalet,then ard 5 meet at Ecp again,and off to home.

Saturday meet Maddy & Goodnite for awhile before meeting the ladies.Havent hang out with 'em much,cos of Maddy's Daddy.I miss those fun times too.

Us in the unisex toilet.Ha.



I love her truckloads.

Goodnite & Me.

After that went to Prata hse with Minmin,Adelia,Celine,Chumei & Karen.It's nice to be with so many girls,cos it's fun.Always crappin' & fooling ard.We went to play pool & billard after that,the whole night was wasted I think.It's all abt waiting & waiting,so sickening.Anyway will meet 'em this wk again I guess.

I'm soooo enjoying my holiday.It's the time to unwind and have fun.This week is gonna be fun too I guess.Sentosa ,shopping etc..But I think I wanna work soon,in order to earn money then can go overseas with them.

I couldnt ask for more now,this is the lifestyle I like.It's wonderful to have great frens ard me.I just saw Rain's blog and I didnt know that she was alil' affected as well,cos that time I was so upset.But well baby,like u said 'I'll get over it someday'. :)

Tmr meeting Maddy and the rest,I cant wait.Gonna watch The Grudge 2 also,there's EDISON starring too.Ahhh uber cute! Finally can meet Soh also,she got a cute bf now,hope she'll be happy & move on.I'm feeling happy most of the time now.

I'm still thinking if I should perm my hair.I think it might turn out ugly,but I ;ove curls.Now looking for ppl to perm tgth.

After a short conversation,I realised that I was so wrong.I didnt think before I do things.All I thought was me,myself & I.I didnt consider his feelings as well.All the while,I was acting like a selfish bitch,whining and complaining.I let emotions rule over my head.Wat abt myself ?I did wrong in the past as well.

I still blame him for that kinda attitude,to think again,he wasnt mean enough.Besides he didnt mean to say those stuff also.But yea,I'm not gonna do things as I like now,gotta think first.Anyway manage to salvage the friendship with yink,I hope nth goes wrong again.

I'm really apologetic about all this.

The weekend has arrive again.Darryl's having his birthday party in a club,but I doubt I'll be going.I wanna hang out with the girls instead,there's gonna be endless fun.

Alrite gtg,having Math paper 2 later.Ahhh I'm nervous~

Tmr's the LAST DAY of O's. =D

Great company (edited by Minmin)

Anyway ytd stay overnight out with Minmin,Adelia and Celine.We had frog leg porridge at Chong pang area,I still think Maddy's hse there one the best.After dinner,headed to Safra's partyworld to sing for a few hours.Supper after that,we can really eat.Then it's 'drifting' time.Lol.Minmin weak la,everytime legs turn into jelly.Drift,drift,drift~

Initially didnt wanna join 'em cos kinda extra,but they were friendly and nice.The night wasnt wasted afterall,had a great time hanging out with them.It's always fun being with girlfriends,nth but fun moments. I wanna have more girl friends.During hol gonna meet corin,serene,nish etc,can get to know 'em better.Cool.

But blah,I think I made a mistake in befriending someone.I thought she was a really nice friend for keep but end up I donno why she's like that.No more chats or words of comfort,maybe she have her reasons but whatever~I'm just disappointed & bewildered..In a difficult position should have told us also,make us look like fools.I wont understand okay.U didnt even tell us anything.Time out?U already decided,no point saying more,ur choice.Even link also remove,think it's a game uh.I'm more upset than angry.Forget it.Just lead ur happy life,tc.

Hooray,finally the holidays are approaching.I've got tons of stuff to do.It's time to catch up with friends.I'm excited!It'll definitely be an enjoyable holiday. :)
As time goes by,I donno wat u want.Those words & harsh tone of urs hurts me,it's so unlike u.Perhaps u really detest me that much,else u wouldnt even hope I will get out of ur life.Didnt knew it was so easy.At least let the friendship remians.I shant bother u,till u feel like talking to me once again.

This week is such a hectic one.Papers,papers,papers~Tmr's so blah,three in a day.

Finally I met Maddy & goodnite,seeing 'em just makes me feel so much better.They nvr fail to cheer me up too.Maddy even got a Hello Kitty hair accessory,with diamantes for me.So nice!Lim also got me some Hello Kitty stuff from Genting.I love ppl who buy Hello kitty merchandise for me. :)

SO YESTERDAY

Today Math paper was quite a relief I guess,cos I think I did it better this time round.But many ppl thinks it's easy,so they might moderate and eventually pull down my grade. =/
Social studies paper was pretty alrite too,but I doubt I can score.No worries still can use last yr's grade.

Supposingly meeting Minmin & Figo to go sch together,but never once I meet 'em.I'm such a tardy queen,I always dilly-dally.End up,gotta take cab.But woah,today's a record,I took cab 4 times.Tsktsk,bad la cos I wanna cut down.Minmin is so crappy,but fun being with her.She wanna do so many things with me,I doubt end up will also.Ha.

I've been having sleepless nights,since the day before.It's so sickening.Last night I mug till 2 and end up I stay awake till the sun rises.Darn.My dark rings are getting darker.@_@ It's kinda scary to be in bed but stay up till it becomes dawn.Sleeping pills,pls~

Anyway I'm much better now,though I broke down twice ytd.Sigh.I know ppl will say it's no use crying over someone who wont cry over u and stuff.But it's hard to control,I didnt know it'd hurt so bad.But at least I wasnt affected when I was doing the papers,cos I have to keep a clear mind in order to think properly.

I dun want puffy eyes,eeeww.Daddy also asks if I was alrite,he tot I was so stress.No way,but I came up with smth dumb,I said I think it might be infection.LOL.Worse still,he ask me to take care of my eyes.Oh,good thing was I didnt cry today.Alrite I shant cry so much,no point.

Maddy & turtle even wrote in their blog entry abt me,so sweet of 'em to console me.I love Maddy,Jas soh+lim,Rain,bB,evan,hannah and many others.Many wished me good luck etc for O's too,thanks all.I feel LOVED,though I'm outta love.

I hope Turtle,Juon & I will get over it soon.No crying girls.We shall stay happy all the time. :)
I gotta stop loving him and not harbour any more hopes.Not even a msg to wish me. :(

IT"S OVER. There's gotta be more to LIFE.

No matter how I try,I cant get to slp.Shit it.

After a long time of bawling,I feel slightly better but still I'm in a unstable state.When the tears are gone,I saw the msg he sent,tears just cant stop rolling down.It's just so dreadful,it hurts tremendously.I know it'll happen sooner or later but I still wanna insists on salvaging it,but it's of no use anymore.

Before that,I really hated him for not replying.Anything can just tell me,rather than made me wait and think so much.And the reason just pisses me off even more.I hate stupid excuses,meaningless argument & sarcasm.I dont see the need for it.

Anyway it made me feel so pathetic at first,no one would treat me this way.Now I know,things doesnt always go ur way.When I'm with him,I have zero self-esteem,I even felt that I wasnt worthy of him.I donno why the hell would I feel this way.But well,on second thought,I shouldnt make myself seem so worthless.

I cant believe it did happened,but yea face the reality.All along I didnt have the courage to walk out of this relationship which I cherish alot,cos I know I will have a tough time getting over it.I was just trying to escape from reality.

It has alr drag on for abt a year,and finally it's time to let go.Problems like bad communication etc would surface,it causes more tension.As time goes by,it spells unhappiness.Since it isnt a happy r/s,there's no point either.

Those flashbacks of those memories made me feel worse.There were too much and I still rmb 'em vividly.Those times were imprinted in my heart,'moments doux'.It really feels as though smth huge has collasped onto u.

When he said that time I said I still love you was that time.Now is now.It made me wonder why would someone's feelings fade that fast.It's only been a week.I just dun understand.It seems to me that letting go for him is pretty easy,makes me feel heart-broken.How could someone just let go so easily,or probably I'm being weak.It leaves me feeling baffled.

However from this r/s,I have learnt to give and take.It's nice of him to want me to change for the better.I think my attitude has improve slightly,lesser tantrums now.I think ur loved ones are the ones who hurts u most,no doubt.It's becos u hold 'em dear to ur heart,and the impact caused would definitely be greater.

It has affected me immensely.However I dun want it to affect my studies.Just a week and it will be over.But the time to unwind myself,there's the big O's. Fuck.It really sucks.I still gotta put it aside and focus.How horrible.

Seriously no words can describe how I feel.I havent felt this way before,one of the saddest day I have had.I hope the heartpain would go off soon.At the same time,I dun want to end it in a bad way,still gonna be good frens.I hope he will find someone more suitable for him.As for me,wait till I get over it.Time to move on,stop deceiving myself and let go.It's really hard to do so,but I have to by all means.

I'm glad that my gals & frens are there for me.I dun want them to see me in such a sad plight either.I shall be strong & as time goes by,I'm sure I'll be fine.BIG GIRLS DUN CRY EASILY.I dun wanna shed any more tears for this,it's useless.I shall be the jovial one like always.

At least I've been through a heartbreak,a differrent experience.I dun regret anything.It only makes me stronger I guess. All this are just parts & parcels of life,think positively.

I shall brace up and go all out for O's.
I hope no matter wat,I still have a place in ur heart.Dont forget abt us.
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

I've been using excess brain juice recently,feel so drained out.Had tuition session today,my teacher always snacks .Haha too much goodies alr.She never fails to talk abt beauty stuff too.Next wk would be the last lesson.Yay,no more M-A-T-H-S tuition.

Argh, there's a mixture of feelings within me.I seriously donno wth things are now.Darn.Whatever man,I should try to adapt to it I guess.Sometimes I just cannot understand.Will someone tell me how a guy mind works ? Once he said'life w/o me would be boring.'From now I see,I guess there's not much diff.Sometimes u make someone ur 'everything',but he/she might not feel the same way. (tell me I'm wrong)

Anyway Daddy's so nice,on seeing that I've been diligent & also kinda stress out.He's gonna bring me out for dinner,JAP cuisine. YAY.Sashimi !!! Now this would cheer me up alil'. :)

Oh Miss Heng is so sweet to send me a msg,encouraging me.There's other ppl as well,e-cards,flowers, msgs,it was a nice gesture. Thanks to all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YIYONG!Wat a pity,I couldnt make it to the bbq.

I'm still pinning on to hopes though it might be dashed.
Sometimes words doesnt show,actions speaks louder.
Just tell me wat's on ur mind,rather than nth at all.

I shall endure for just one more week.I know I outta focus on studies for now,but just cant get some things off my mind.Maths is causing misery in the head,not forgetting phy.Blah~

It's gets irritating when many ppl keep asking me out,not like I dun want,but I freaking CANT.Go slack,watch movie,club etc. I know they might not realise it's o's period now,but I'm just sick of it.I'm not in the mood to entertain or chat either.Free,free,free?Argh. Moodswing I suppose.

This morning,some freaking idiot got nth better to do.Gave me a morning call,and talk some gibberish & I donno who it is.WTH!It wasnt easy for me to get to slp,and of all time gotta call me early in the morning.Couldnt get back to sleep after that,super duper pissed. ;(
NO MORNING CALLS PLS!(unless there's urgent stuff or after 12PM)

Although we havent come to a decision yet,whatever it is I will accept it.Though there's this inexplicable fear within me.
Time might head us nowhere, Fate might break us apart, but I'll always be thankful that once along my journey I knew someone like you. Cheesy,cliche,whatever,it's my say.
Not much msges or contact. :( U're still the one.

Turtle,cheer up too!

EMO~ ELMO

I hate it when I'm at home,cos I tend to be more emotional.That's when all my unhappiness would surface & I cant take it off my mind.It sucks to mull over some matters.Thus,I enjoy the company of friends.I wont be reminded of unhappy stuff,just play ard & chitchat.

What lies beneath a person's facade,I wonder....I realised it's really hard to understand someone well enough,not to mention know him/her inside out.I dislike superficial people as well.

Maddy's back,with lil' gifts.Thanks sweetie and also for always being there for me & stand by me.U're a great listening ear,we shall get through the tough phases of life together.

Anyway I had a big fright today,shant elaborate.I hope it's not anything serious. :(
Many thoughts but unable to express it all.

'Will you hold me if I fall,tell me you will always be there for me.'

I will love myself more from now on. :)
I miss hunnybunny.I hope we wont drift apart.

CHINESE O'S

Chinese O's is tmr.All the best to fellow mates.I hope to get an A2.Alrite back to the chinese materials.Anyway hope Maddy will have a great time in Genting.Toodles~
Being with u is a gift,if I lose u for good.I'd be lost.
U have no idea how much u mean to me.

Here's the photos for HALLOWEEN !

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Presenting yours truly .Kinda scary ? =D

Happy US!

We had a fabulous time ytd at escape theme park.Maddy,Jas soh,Kansie,Goodnight & Winfield & I went together. Although it wasnt that crowded but the atmosphere was there.Lots of wandering 'ghosts' & monsters! However the boo-boo thing was not all the rides are operating.

We took many quite a number of photos with the monsters there.Some of them really gives u the creep,so evil-looking.The rides wasnt that thrilling but the haunted house was really spooky.While inside,there's loads of screaming but it was fun .

We also took part in this dress up competition ,the theme was 'The grudge 2'.The materials were so limited,only garbage bags,toilet rolls & masking tapes.They wrap me up with toilet rolls,kinda funny but i couldnt move an inch.LOL.

End up I WON!Cos I have long hair. Goodnite looks funny too.We actually had 6 movie tickets to the movie 'The Grudge 2'. Awesome ! It was really worth it for the prize,so much for the makeup & dressing up. =D

We had lots of laughter & fun there.We're gonna dress up next yr.I cant wait ! I love Halloween & my clique! HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO ALL,HAVE FUN! :)

Anyway we sort of separated,we need more time to reconsider our r/s again. I dun want to keep stressing over it,I dun wanna be unhappy in a r/s.It's better if we understand each other better or smth.Things are beyong our control.After O's then see how things go,I hope things turn for the better.I wanna be appreciated.The road to true love was never easy.
I have found love in you, and found you in the search of love.

I think insomnia is back to haunt me.Last night,I toss & turn for like one hour before I can fall aslp.It was alr 5 and Daddy had to wake me up at 12 to study.WHAT A PAIN! Such a dreadful start for the day.

I've finished quite a few papers,quite diligent alr.For a lazy bum like me.I think I cant be bothered with stuff,not letting things distract me.Thus there's this drive within me to push myself to study.Not bad after all.But I do feel stress out at times,no fun or anything just books. :(

Whatever ! I need to unwind !I'm going with my clique to the 'Halloween' event.I hope it'll be F-U-N! =D

Escape to "Hell"oween - The Grudge 2

Come join us this Halloween season for an unforgettable "Hell"oween experience at Escape Theme Park. An entire realm awaits you and your family.In conjunction with the release of the new movie, The Grudge 2 this November, the Park will be decorated with the movie's theme. Be prepared to be spooked by wandering "ghosts" and "spirits". Get your destiny read with tarot cards, Indian fortune telling and Chinese palmistry


Date:27 October - 29 October
Venue:Escape Theme Park
Time:7pm - 11pm
Ticket Prices:$10 (Adult)

Sounds cool,the tarot cards & stuff.And it's 10 bucks only.Haha.I wanna go to a costume party soon,it seems so fun!

I know I'm a problematic gal. To be honest, I dun have the words to make u feel better, but I do have the arms to give u a hug, ears to listen to whatever u want to talk abt, and I have a heart; a heart that yearns to see u happy always.
I still love u like always.
Even when u're mean or wat.HA!

Darn STALKER ;(

STALKERS=SHITHEADS

Today's a BAD BAD day.

Finally,I went out today to take a lil' break from those damn books & naggy Daddy.He's been nagging more often,irksome.

I went to meet Maddy and we had our fav Sambal prawn rice,today one taste downright awful.We went to play a few round of pool and as expected I won.LOL! Oh,I bumped into my primary sch best fren as well,so nice to see her again.She's in NYJC now,smart chick.I enjoyed Maddy's company :)

Some stupid incident happened when I was on my way home.This guy walked past me in opposite direction and suddenly after a while,I felt someone was following behind.To my surprise,that guy was behind me,so I pace up alil.It's so obvious that he's stalking me,bloody ass.He keep lurking around,waited for me and keep looking.Eeeww!!He still pretend to hide somewhere at one point.Wtf.

Luckily I was alert,else I donno wat could have happen.My hse vicinity is really unsafe.That ass made me stood there paralysed with fear.End up,Daddy came and fetch me.Too bad for that darn idiot.Pls,no more stalkers.I've met a few.

Anyway it lead to a lil' squabble.I didnt called him straight away when I reach home.I went to take a quick shower.My phone was on silent mode,so I didnt ans his calls.I alr told him Daddy coming down,so I should be safe & sound.I wanted to call after my shower.But he claims that I donno how to think for others,cos he's worried.

I know it's my fault for this,but I alr apologised and all that.Still,he hasnt simmer down.He digress and said why I switch on silent mode,might as well dun bring phone bla bla bla.I dun think it's my fault cos each person has his own likes.I hate the irritating ringtone so I put on silent mode.Nth wrong with it.

Although it's my fault that I didnt ensure him my safety right away,but the main thing is I'm safe.So I think even in a fit of anger,he outta cool down alil.But no,he's still pissed.Still I dun think he hafta talk in that manner,I think it's kinda rude or smth.I freakin' donno how to appease someone & I think just let him be first,else aggravate him even more.

So much for a stupid stalker thing.

Sometimes I see myself,I donno whether I'm pathetic,dumb or whatsoever.Wth. =/

TO HELL WITH BLOODY STALKERS/MOLESTERS ! ;(
I'm sry,baby.
But I hate it when u get mad at me.



Anyway my NEW pretty nails.HA!

I'm sick of being at home.Daddy keep asking me to study, I cant possibly study the whole day right.He just dun understand,I hope he goes to work soon.

Last night I was bored,so decided to send sweet E-cards to friends.I sent different ones alrite,except the sec sch ladies cos there's too many of them.It's just another way to keep in touch with 'em and to convey my concern & misses cos we dun have many chances to catch up with one another.I wanna hang out with 'em after O's.

My tuition teacher is kinda friendly & nice.But she distracts me la,cos she'd chat abt clubs,guys & beauty stuff.Haha quite cool.Today she enquire abt the fake eyelashes and stuff,it really does wonder to ur eyes.I'm still trying very hard to cope with Maths. =/

To love and to be loved is the greatest joy.

Due to my laziness,I didnt get up in the morning to update Daddy regarding the stock market.Hence he suffer like a few thousand loss,felt rather guilty.But hey,cant blame me entirely cos I cant get up in the morning.Luckily he didnt scold me or anything.

I dread staying at home,it gets really boring at times.OH! And i got this darn problem,such a torture la.For today I think I peed like 10 over times alr.WTH.Im gonna take some pills & it'll be alrite.I hate peeing for now.Ha.

Some bloody guy is super irritating,such a pest.I alr said umpteen times that I'm not free to hang out & he keeps ranting on & on abt how humourous he is,fun,destresss yada-yada..Oh shuddup,if it's that way find other ppl who are interested ,not ME.Such ppl irks me greatly,irritants!

I can see that he's trying to comprehend how I feel and think of us,thanks for being understanding.I shall not let my mind wander about then.

Dun be silly Cassy,things are gonna be absolutely fine. :)

THAILAND TRIP =)

I'm having sleepless nights for the past few days.Somehow I just cant get to sleep,for whatever reasons,I donno either.It sucks.

Okay realised I havent update regarding the trip to Thailand on 28th Sept.It's been weeks,I know.I'm just plain lazy.Not much pics though,cos when I was there,camwhore mode wasnt switched on.

I guess I'll just briefly mention those stuff which I still rmb.HA.

Alrite firstly I do not enjoy the trip at all,I only love the food there.Those meals at restaurants;sharksfin,crabs etc.Simply delicious.However it's kinda unhygenic,I bought this yaki-tori thing & to my horror I found a hair in it.Yucks.

OH!It's kinda weird being in the ladies with 'she-males'/transvestite,and it amuses me when I see 'em touch up.The most funny thing was this man in his mid 30's came in to the ladies and he did not felt embarrassed or anything.He just look at me & went in to some cubicle.OMG!I was gigglin' to myself,cos we dont come across this in S'pore.He's a normal guy,FYI.

Not to forget,it was kinda rare to see normal couples I supppose.So whenever I saw normal couples,I'd feel at ease.But once I saw this supposingly normal couple,turns out to be even more abnormal.The boyfren was wearing a B-R-A,and he has no breasts,just chest.I was mortified.It was hilarious as well.Sick la he.

However,I realised some transvestites were really pretty and they have long silky hair.But the thought of some might have dicks is such a turn-off.LMAO!For a moment,I feel like going under the knife as well.But I wont do it,it seems so tormenting.

I L-O-V-E how cheap their shoes were going at,even those heels which has lots of diamantes.If I live there,I'll buy a pair every week I guess.Those lingeries too,I bought quite alot,real dirt cheap.So cool.And not forgetting their TAXI,uber nice cos they comes in different colours+super cheap.If s'pore cab is like dat too,I dont mind taking it everyday. =D

I love the PINK one most.

I like the diamante butterflies hairband a lot.I love stuff with diamantes.I regret not buying more of those.

I get to spend more quality time with Daddy as well,we had a heart-to-heart talk.He told me many personal stuff & I think it's great cos it brings the bond between us closer.He seems like a solemn guy,however he has his share of goofiness as well.He dun mind acting cute with me,that's sweet.

My nose resembles Daddy's one,I hate it. SO BIG.I always complain to him abt it.Haha.

The old & young one.Tongue out!

Hmm,but it made me think back of the past.The lack of family outings & stuff is really upsetting.The only complete family photo I saw was when I was a baby.We never get to take pic as a family as I grow older.I really hope for a complete family,if only things doesnt turn out this way.My wish is to have a family photo taken again soon,though things are diff now.

Back to the main topic.I had my nails done there too,and bought quite a few boxes of acrylic nails.I wanted to sit the ferris wheel but Daddy doesnt like,spoilsport.Ha.Oh,and some youngsters ard my age or slightly older at the airport was dumb or shallow la,they tot Daddy was my 'Sugar Daddy' Wth.-_-

It's damn high,I reckon the scenery up there must be fabulous.

Nail art rocks.


I think I gained like 2kg when I came back,I ate a lot over there.I cant seem to rmb other stuff.But the air steward was cute.Gee.I wanna go overseas soon,but with frens. :)

I just had my nails done.It's somehow like french manicure but with a touch of zebra prints.Nice nice! ;)

Sometimes I tend to think too much.
Wont u stop thinking for once,dear brain.
I'm afraid or smth,just a weird feeling.
I'm gonna try to slp.

Things doesnt seem to be the same.

Patch with nana

Today's a special day for me. :)

I'm feeling extremely HAPPY now.I've been awaiting for this day as well.We finally got back together after so much stuff has happened.He's soooo sweet & nice to me,which makes me feel really blissful.Thus,I'll treasure him dearly.

I think he's really worth it cos he can tolerate me,accept my flaws also.I shant take him for granted or let him down then.Ha!

I just hope this time round,we'll have better communication and understanding of each other.Even if we cant be tgth again,at least we tried & will remain good friends like before..

He made me realised many things,learn stuff too.I feel gay whenever I'm with him.Lol!Once in awhile right in the middle of an ordinary life love gives us a 'fairy tale' after all.

Let's mend this broken love tgth, my precious amoureux.
Ur presence in my life brings wonderful smiles & loving thoughts within my heart.
Je t'aime <3

I hope we'll nvr part and our love will lasts.

It's fun hanging out with them,LOVE 'em loads! :)

Vivo la vivo city

Alrite,I screwed up phy component yet again.Haha. I hate phy la.Seriously,I donno wat's the freaking use of experiments.

Anyway went to school with Minmin,chatted quite abit,can get along pretty well.Winfield talked abt Vivo City,it seems like such a great place to S-H-O-P! Keep tempting me by talking abt the various food outlets,shops & even CANDY EMPIRE!Awww~Totally attracted.Not sure if tmr going though.

I sooooo wanna go VIVO CITY !

Happy birthday,Syafiq! :)

O's sci prac

O's science practical is tmr !

I'm feeling alil' nervous cos I cant do physics experiment for nuts.It's gonna be stuffy in that tiny lab. =/ I hope I know how to do some,at least.I dun wanna screw up this time,good luck to those taking it as well.

Come to think of it,it's been almost a year gone.Time really flies.

Back to revision now.Toodles~

Am i oversensitive or what?
It's just inexplicable to me.

Happily -Ever-After Deficiency Syndrome(HEADS)

I tot it'd be a great day for me to release stress.But yet,last min things changed.Soh cant make it thus K-ing session is cancelled. :(

I ended up with Maddy,went to had dinner and dinner wasnt fantastic either.OH!We witnessed a very pitiful old man going ard eating ppl's leftovers.Really poor thing la,upon seeing it my heart feels a twinge of sadness & sympathy.

Imagine how unhygenic and gross it is?But I guess for the sake of surviving hence no choice .He even ate my share. >.< I felt bad as my noodles were real spicy & he has to find more 'dirty drinks'.We went to get a variety of bread for him,as we were afraid that he'd go hungry.When we came back,we couldnt see him anywhere.I'm glad at last we gave it to this rather pitiful old lady.

I'm suffering from Happily-Ever-After Deficiency Syndrome.(HEADS) I guess majority of us subsconciously or not,lost faith in sustaining a relationship.Over a myriad change of generation,increasingly our cynical bunch gradually develop such a thinking.

I'm craving for a stable r/s as well but there's just this niggling fear in me that makes me hold back from believing what I really yearn for.Even if I'm attached,there's this fear of heading to 'Splitsville'.

Sometimes,I feel that we dun understand each other well enough or something.I feel a mixture of feelings at times.I'm doing whatever I can,cos u're really important to me.I feel perturbed. :(

I love my online diary,cos I'm able to pour all my woes or jot down happy or memorable times.

I wonder if it's meant to be,and how much I mean to u.
I yearn for a bond so strong,that it'd nvr part.
Je t'aime. <3

I HATE getting up early in the morning!! Daddy woke me up from dreamland. >.<

Surprisingly I stay at home the whole day.Cos I'm usually restless & dislike cooping myself at home.I'm controlling myself,I soooo wanna get out and chill with frens but nah all these recreational activities can wait.Wow,I do know how to set my priorities right afterall.

I miss Daddy.Cos if I'm outside,I have my meals before going hm.And if I am at home,Daddy always get food for me,be it lunch/dinner.I dislike going down to get food,the last time was prolly several months ago.I think alil' 'aunty' or weird la.I think I'm MAD.Ha!So Mac delivery is my ultimate choice.

I'm extremely displease with my gf's guy.Seriously,I think he's so not okay.Fancy a grown up man,threatening ppl.Wth!Somemore also doesnt concern him,YUCKS.To me,he sucks.Grow up will u,think it's fun?Childish!Dont think u're the king or some shit la,bloody tyrant wannabe.Mind your own business,it's girls problem now.*Rolls eyes

Right now,maths and science materials are my all-time companion.How great.=/

Bad cough & stomach cramps been plaguing me.Sickening~

I wanna hang out with 'em too,kinda upset la.Gotta buried my head in books instead.K-BOX tmr.YAY! :D

My wkend was such a boo-boo.Studies been occupying most of my time,so life-less.But just endure cos one reaps what one sows,and I wanna pass soooo badly this time round.

Yesterday,some unfortunate happened to Maddy.She was molested by some bloody pervert.Scare the shit outta her,she hurled vulgarities at him and he ran away.Luckily he only touch her butt and nth else.

I totally understand how it feels cos I've encounter it before.I was merely p6,innocent schoolgirl.Stupid crazy fella,stalk me somemore.The worse is he didnt run away,he still got the nerve to look at me and ask 'What?'.Being the timid me back then,I kept quiet and began bawling after I met my fren.Poor me.Ha!

Seriously,perverts are real scary.I think they do such a thing means they've got some mental disorder problem or whatever weird habit etc.Why cant they visit brothels for goodness sake,wanna take advantage for free.Get a life man!I cant tolerate such immoral,beastly acts.Those low & degrading creeps!Hope they turn out impotent,that's the best =D

Thus,gotta be more alert & careful of the vicinity.Only then,they will have no chance to paw on u with their filthy hands.

I didnt know a strong friendship would turn out to be that fragile.I thought it is of utmost importance to one but it seems like to some,other ppl/things are their top priority.True friends doesnt come and go,so dont forsake them.And I realised sometimes there is more than meets the eye,u wont know what lies beneath.How very disheartening.

I just want things to be simple,I dislike ulterior motives or whatsoever.

Anyway Daddy went overseas again and he left me with this very important task.Haha.He wanted me to monitor the stock market,inform him as and when the statistics of his shares changes,be it drop or rises.What a bother,gotta wake up early in the morning like 9 and it closes at 5.Gosh,such a hassle.But if it rises,I benefit too,more money for shopping!Im keeping my fingers crossed,pls rise.Gee.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY,RAIN!We shall go out soon yea.

MEMO TO SELF : STUDY HARD FOR THE REMAINING DAYS TILL O'S OVER. :)

Nice windchime with pretty seashells.
Love it,and the person who gave me as well.

Byebye secondary sch

TODAY'S officially the LAST DAY of SCHOOL !! =D

I've been waiting for soooooo long for this day.The first day I went back I already wish I could withdraw.Initially,I couldnt stand the fact that I'm gonna be w/o my usual cliques and it'd be real tough for me.Secondly,I felt embarrassed as well,to go back as a retained student and in N.A.Many asked me why am I back,seriously that's a damn stupid question to ask.

NO MORE embarrassing moment when I'm afraid to bump into ex-students.Everytime I bump into 'em,I wish I could hide somewhere or run away.That feeling totally sucks.It just made me feel useless/ dumb or whatsoever.No one will understand how it feels except those who have been thru it.

I do care how others look at me or how they feel & stuff.The worst is when ppl keep jokin' abt it,laugh at it.C'mon though it's a joke to u,but the person will feel hurt.However all this wouldnt happened if I studied hard.Hence hafta take it in my stride.

NO MORE darn rules to abide.That's the best thing.I can do my pretty nails and other stuff.This year is the worst year I've ever been thru throughout my entire education journey.

The only good thing I gained from going back to YCKSS is knowing great ppl like Kansie,Winfield,the 6 ladies,Ck,Nish,Jiayu,Serene and some others better.

Now's the time to give my best shot & also my 'last' chance.I can do it. :) Gotta be optimistic as well.HA.I dont wanna waste Daddy's effort & money too,and lastly to be disappointed in me once again.

TATA,SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE.
(I'm feeling overjoyed!!)

Weee didnt went to sch for two days.I met Maddy,Soh and gdnite.

We went to town,but didnt saw much stuff we like hence gonna shop again soon.It's damn fun hanging out with her,simply love doing everything together.We always reminisce the past,laugh at whatever embarrassing incidents together.Lots of memories as well.We plan to go on a tour also.I hope so :)

Soh and gdnite also full of nonsense.They are a great bunch of company.


Besties . :)


Uncle so extra.Lol

I'm gonna stay over at Maddy's hse soon,yay.Havent been there since so long ago,i miss Nasi lemak and my fav FROG LEGS.Yumyum. I cant wait to hang out with her,I'm gonna do her nails too,that aunty do until so ugly.Haha.

Tmr's the LAST day of school. Wooohoooo~

My stomach still hurts after so many days.Wonder if i got Norovirus gastroenteritis ,it struck like 4 schools.I'd be sooooo proud to be the first and got my school into the newspaper.Haha,just kiddin'.

I'm extremely HAPPY that it's gonna be the end of school soon. I cant wait!Tmr might skip sch & go shopping or smth with Maddy.Or prolly meet Rain.Yay.But I've been muggin' hard so a lil' break is fine.

Today damn unlucky,a few policemen screened Jas soh,gdnite and me.Wth,we also dun look like bad kids.They really got nth better to do, somemore ask if my nail art is allowed in sch and abt my makeup.Such a nosy-parker.

Anyway I hate being caught between the devil and the deep blue sea kinda situation.It's a real bother.It always causes many problems/arguments to arise.Dammit.Have to think of the consequences and stuff,and end up being blamed for keeping mum abt it or leaking it out.Besides I'm not the party involved,it's hard for me also.Sigh.... I hope it wont happen again.

No communication for a few days.Miles apart but always on my mind.

Replies here when there's more tags.

Porky : U're welcome,just a trival matter.Anyway no need la,cos first item sold the money also not enough for a treat.LOL.Earn more then see how.

Maddy : Hey darling,u're back! Meet up soon yea ;)

Xueli : Yea we outta organise a chalet,it'll be sooooo fun! If cant get then have BBQ also not bad.Play again,u sure anot?U cant count for nuts la.HAHA.So unlucky always lose.Anyway hope u enjoyed. :)

Kansie : Okay big feast soon+ shopping .

Karen : Yea to some it's no big deal,but I simply cannot stand it.Haha.Anyway no more school for us.Cheers!

Jinyong : Oh okay.Hope nth serious yea. Take good care of urself.

Rain : Most prob I'll go tmr,gimme a call.Maybe we can hang out after that.Lots to catch up =D

Passerby : Haha yea,it totally sucks.Think u understand cos u dun like being alone too.

Nish : Hey Twisties! Yea I saw alr,somemore Sonic wrote it so damn ugly.Itchy hands la he,think he gonna vandalise more tables.Haha,I wanna see ur 'twisties' fingers!

I'm such a PROCRASTINATOR.I realized I havent update my trip to Thailand.Ha.Nvm it can wait.

Anyway went to Sentosa(again) on Sat with the girls.Suppose to have more pl but end up there's only 5 of us.But nevertheless we enjoyed ourselves :)


The awesome ladies


The cheaterbugs.lol


We're the winner!




Friends for keep

We actually brought a whole roasted black pepper chicken there.So un-glam to eat with drumstick in one hand,lol !We suntan for awhile only cos there's a few disgusting+lecherous indian men looking at us with that lusty look.Eeeww~

Hence we went back for a drink,and guess what?They actually followed and keep peering over from another bench.Makes us wanna puke.Suddenly this UNCLE came and said we really like u all alot,maybe we could go out or be friends.WTH! So old alr,damn old faggots.Totally gross la.In my arrogant tone,i said 'NO!' and walk off with my gals.I saved 'em.Haha.

When we change to another spot,a few foreigners came and ask to have pictures taken together.Quite cool la.We played ard,and BeeBee+ Shewon always cheat.Lol,unfair.Yingwei's such a camwhore,she took like 74367825 pics of herself =D

After awhile,some ppl joined us for a game of volleyball.It was pretty fun and they actually invited us to their bbq session.We ate and play,it's quite fun I should say.One guy was even thrown into the pool by us,they were real sporting and nice.

Oh and we took a video of ourselves singing Happy Birthday song to Xueli.Think she go hm cry,cos too touched.HA!Happy advanced birthday sweetie!

Not only the indian guys infuriated me,on my way back.There's a buncha like Vietnam guys and they kept looking at us.And one bloody ass purposely brush onto me,take advantage.Such a jerk.Immediately I hurl vulgarities at him and not even a reply.Guilty-conscious,so shameless la.

I totally LOVE hangin' out with the girls,I wanna have more outings.And dear maddy's back =)
Evan got a real cute haircut too!
Photos will be uploaded soon.

ALL ALONE,in sch.

Fuck. Today literally sucks. ;(

I went to school ALL ALONE.As in my cliques didnt went,if I know not even one is going I wouldnt go.One last min told me not going,nvm another one didnt ans tot she went to sch.I HATE being alone.Cannot stand it,hence weep alil initially.

It's not exactly weak,it's simply too dependent on others.I wanted to leave sch but it wasnt allowed,cos the guard will check thorughly.Worse still,means I hafta be stuck in sch all day long.At least Jon and Figo got go sch else I'll surely take cab home,heckcare.

I was in a gloomy mood all the time.When I'm feeling all alone,there's this inadequate or insecure feeling.One of the worst scenario that I would ever want to happen.Actually inside I'm struggling and also helpless but yet I hafta put on a brave front,gotta be strong.

Whatever it is,i pulled it through.I will NEVER go to sch all alone again!!!
(Think next week going for one/two day only.)

NO ONE IS ALLOW TO LEAVE ME ALONE again. Sounds like some tyrant but whatever.

Oh and I hate asking favours from others,it's like having to put your pride or whatsoever aside.And gotta trouble ppl. Darn.

To sum it up,today was one of the worst day for this month.Spoil my day.Hope tmr Sentosa gathering with the girls will be fun. :)

I've got some nick.HA! How nice of Ck. Puppy,Cookie Monster,seah kay see-no evil.
So in return he's Old Chang Kee.Kansie's rotiboy.LOL.And I just got to know Nish is Twisties cos her fingers are short. =X But lil' fingers are cute!

Maddy went for a 3 day 2 night cruise.Meet up when u're back.<3

Today's the mid-autumn festival.So time for yummy mooncakes and big fire?Ha.

John tucker must die is a pretty much entertaining show.He's a real jerk but yea karma do exists,so the girls thought of a brilliant way to get back at him.Pay-back time was really hell for him.Girls can be very scheming at times,you donno what's up their sleeve.i hate such people.Blah.And i guess it's true,dont provoke a woman as she can be as venomous as a snake.

Today's programme was cancelled,hence no fun.I'm not in the best of mood,having tummy ache as well.Feel so awful.

But luckily Daddy bought crabs and it did cheer me up :) Im lazy to update abt the trip.Ha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH!miss ya.

Back from thailand

Sawadee ka !

I'm BACK :) I know my peeps miss me.Haha.I came back to see like 20+ msges,mymy kinda shocked.But yea so sweet & nice of some ..

I HATE taking flights.Cos at some point the pressure seems so unbearable..Although I didnt buy much stuff,I still manage to get some stuff for friends.Luckily I found bikini on the last day,lucky Kansie and also Maddy,Minmin and xueqi....HA.I'm sooo glad I'm back,I didnt enjoy the trip.

Anyway I shall update tmr,some weird & funny incident happened.

Back to sch again tmr,damn i dread going to sch.

Replies to TAGS.

Winfield:Yea,all in ONE piece.Haha i know u & the other two miss me like hell. Okay seeya,and let's study okay,not gossip =D

Karen:Flood me?So free ah.outta be studying ryte..tsktsk.Anyway it's not a fruitful trip but if u want nails,i have. :) Oh,and dont hafta get angry over 'annoymous',just some bugger.

Colleen:Okay linked.Play pool again some day.

Xueli:Okay ,yay girls outing again.I cant wait!And our usual pig-out sessions.I miss u girls.

Jinyong:Oh nvm,tag when u're free then.Take care of ur body health .And yea gotta enjoy life ! =)

Crybaby:Wahh rare visitor..Haha I just enjoy bullying ppl,esp U. =p

MinMin:Miss me alot ?Sure anot? U seem to be having fun dancing+bioing cute guys.LOL.Anyway I wanna see ur hair la,go sch then u have nails~ :D

Maddy:Woah my darling's a fierce one.Ayy annoymous dont provoke her.Haha,or try provoking her.Anyway i miss u loads too,can meet up soon <3>

Goodnite:Maybe it's ur enemy then he/she not happy come disturb me. U this trouble-maker!Haha.jk la.. Heckcare yea.seeya!

Annoymous:Sucks sucks sucks ? WTH?Can u like say u sucks or smth,be more specific.HAHA.. Anyway it's nice that ppl do read my blog after all,welcome u anytime. But seriously do u think I care,it doesnt affects me .Try harder :)

Here I am again~

Anyway got back some result.As usual I flunk my phy.
But but but there's improvement in my Maths,although i fail by abit.I know i can do it if i continue to work hard :)
I'm sooooooo HAPPY !

Anyway good luck to all those having N level.Esp Karen & Serene(pizzahut girl).U go girls!

Glad that I can leave s'pore as well,now I think can stay even longer also good.Sometimes I just hate it here.

TATA.Bon voyage to myself ~

Man,back to school again~ Bored,bored,bored.

Anyway got back some result,got improvement,not bad.Ha.Anyway today our school held a talk,just to educate us about sex or rather premaritial sex.Lol,kinda funny la.The video and stuff also nth much .

I'll be going to Thailand from thurs till mon.Initially Daddy & friend wanted to go Shanghai but they dun feel like going urban city kind.-_- But his friend last min cannot make it so me, being the filial one decided to accompany him although I'm quite reluctant to.

Seriously,I dislike going to Thailand cos of that snatch and run incident,stupid bloody thieves.So scary la,still left me traumatised.But this time round more fear,i hope there's no BOMBING!Maddy's friend's friend hand kena some explosion thing,so horrifying.Go there can get outta s'pore for awhile also not bad+can skip 2 days of school+shopping.

THINGS TO GET

• Maddy's top/accessories
• Kansie's bikini
• Winfield's Issey Miyake perfume
• Tidbits for goodnite x)
• Soonwee's tee
• Minmin's nails/nail polish
• Xue Qi's acrylic nails
• Souvenirs for jas lim,soh,sch clique
• Pressie for mummy

Okay i think i might miss out some.See how.But surely will buy stuff for some.LOL.Let's see who's lucky.

Maddy's super sweet & nice,she wanted to send and fetch me from airport.But I dont want,like troublesome.Love her to bits..

I think Daddy ROCKS,cos he still allow me to go even if it's the exam period now.Alrite pray for me peeps. =D

I'm soooo gonna miss some of 'em,esp maddy & nana.Be back on 2nd Oct.

Till then,miss me too ! (chuckles)

I'm real bored at home,so more entries.HA!

Sunday went to sentosa with Kansie,Soonwee & Teddy.Although there's only four of us but nevertheless we had fun.However no pics,lazy to take.

They wanted to suntan but not me,cos I wanna be fair.Sounds weird eh,cos I dont even rmb myself being fair before. ;D
I think if i really wanna be fair,I hafta stay out from the sun and buy tons of whitening products.*Shrugs. Forget it i guess,seems impossible.

We go there like having picnic,bought lots of sushi.After eating we went to play,all the games,got Soonwee sure lose.LOL! He's the ultimate loser.Played soccer as well,being a klutz I had a fall again.Haha,Kansie and I were so rough,keep kicking onto each other's leg.

They went to burried Soonwee as well,cos he's so petite.Quite funny.Next time gotta organise properly,more ppl=more fun.

Gosh,I realised I'm such a prodigal.Anyway I cant wait to shop.That clutch bag,oh-so-cute guess handbag,dior makeup,clothes,shoes,perfume etc.Never-ending stuff to buy.

I'm spending way too much on cabfare.Besides the more I take cab,the more I detests buses,trains are like better.Darn,have to curb my spendings.
( If I were to take lesser cabs,I would have been a lil' rich girl with ten over grands in my bank. :D)

Sometimes I really wonder why would besties do stuff which hurts/harm each other.I've been thru it and it really feels like ur heart's being shattered into million pieces.Although the greatest liberation is forgiveness,but i doubt ppl will change,just like how a leopard nvr changes its spots.

I guess the best confidante would be oneself.It's not wise to trust anyone totally.It keeps me pondering,whatever happened to sisterhood ?

I hope things will go well for Maddy on 29th.No matter what,I'll stand by you baby.I miss ur crappin' already,meet up meet up!And scold me 'kp' again ,u watch out!HA!

I'm totally drunk with joy and happiness when I'm with you,no one is able to make me feel the same way as u do.The times we share might be too short but it's the quality that counts.

No verbal/physical abuse pls.Lmao!

I pretty much enjoyed my wkend,finally can let my hair down and hang out with friends.

The highlight of my wkend would be going to Sakura international buffet restaurant.There's a few outlet,but i think the one near cine would be better.It seems like every week we head to different places for good food.Lol,no wonder we keep gaining weight.

SATURDAY

The food hunters :D

At first I was thinking,might as well shop rather than eat.However when we got there,I didnt regret at all,although that clutch bag I saw was really nice.There's simply too much delicacies.But main highlight which were the pics of food is still with winfield, will upload soon.

Let me name some..My fav,Salmon Sashimi,western cuisine(lamb chop,steak,chic chop),fresh seafood;oysters,mussels,prawns!Many diff kinda sushi,well-seasoned soup,drunkard prawns,duck,herbal chic.Pasta,salads & not forgetting savoury,pretty lil' desserts.

The delicacies

Goodnite and his chawa-mushi.(think he nvr eat b4,so happy)


Kansie & the yummy mochi


Another sashimi lover like me.


I'm loving it,sashimi rocks man.


Want a piece? No way,I want it all to myself. =p


Everyone likes the dory fish.


The drunkard prawns taste so divine.


Desserts which are so heavenly.

We had a delectable dinner.It feels as though I had eaten an elephant! So what's next,guys ?Haha.This is why my slimming plan doesnt work. =D


There's still a kid in everyone.

Now,ppl reminisce your childhood. :)

Today's the 100th post !

Anyway it's suppose to be a G-R-E-A-T day cos it's also the last day of prelim.However from the start of the day,the idiotic cab driver ruined it.He's the worst driver I've ever met.

He's sooooo clever la,turn one big round and like went back to the same place where i board the cab.(-____-)"
I was like,"Eh uncle,i said ang mo kio st 61,not yishun st 61."
He just smiled sheepishly and said"Oh i forgot/heard wrong."

But the thing is doesnt he even have brains or common sense.If wanna go back to the same place i still take cab for wat,might as well walk.HOW DUMB IS THAT ?
Almost died from exasperation.I really wonder if he's senile or what.

As if that wasnt enough,I just put up with it.But he caused me to be LATE!!! Damn sucks I tell u,supposingly I can be on time,thanks to his inattentiveness.The worst is here.

I asked nicely:"Uncle,later can you help me explain to teacher that u went the wrong way that's why I was late cos I dont wanna do detention."

Guess what kinda reaction he gave?

HE: Gave a lil' LAUGHTER (smiling happily)

I see already feel like swearing SCREAMING at him.Bloody ass! Still got the cheek to laugh,didnt even apologise lo.I was hopping mad,gonna lash it out any moment.But I control myself,just becos he's a old man alrite.Stupid driver still dare to charge me freaking 10 bucks.Make him eat then he know.Lol.

I hate stupid/dumb/brainless/witless/moronic/numskulled cab drivers.Screw'em!

Whatever,shant let this unhappy incident affect my happy mood.Darn,I'm not unable to bake a cake,cos maddy's hse too messy,but still I got my own way.Haha.I'm soooo gonna enjoy the next few days.

I find it unreasonable when ppl who asks me out but I cant make it and they give me some shitty reply/attitude.I'll try to make time for friends okay.So be understanding,not as if I wont meet u forever.When i keep quiet I'm just trying hard not to show attitude,if I dont treat anyone as friends,I wont give a damn or simply ignore.

Seriously,sometimes i detests certain guys.Dont be over-sensitive,might not be referring to you.

I just wanna be happy and have fun,cos the exam blues are over. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA ! ;)

I've got lots to say today.Haha.Anyway after sch went to had lunch at kfc,saw Nish & friends.Nish & jiayu waved+smiled at me,i love friendly souls. =D

We couldnt study much cos the place was so noisy la,filled with irritating students.Duh~Hence we roamed around,I got the urge to buy stuff.But I needa control,trying hard to save up which i hardly/never do.End up I went to a fortune teller,weird eh.LOL.

Surprisingly he actually remembers me.Gee cos I went before,which is like ages ago.The first thing he said STUNNED me,almost instantly I was really stupefied.He said my luck isnt in its best,but what's shocking was he mentioned that I could bump into 'those things'.I was like OMG!tell me that isnt true..Freakingly scary.But yea after that didnt wanna think/care too much abt it.

He said family got not much problem.That's a good piece of news to me. As for social/love life he said there are many to choose from,so no hurry.But the bad thing is once I commit,I'll fall deep deep in.Haha,kinda funny.He said I wont have control over my emotions and I'll hold on or smth.True true.

He remarked that health and studies are more important.He said gotta take note of my diet and bla bla.Haha,meaning i fat la.Nah not so bad la he.Studies shouldnt be a problem,but cannot be lazy,otherwise should be rather smooth.I like this the best. :)

Oh not forgetting that he mentioned I gotta control my temper,so accurate man.But I'm trying hard la,dont expect too much.I'm short-tempered however when it comes to the real thing.I'm slow to it,but once provoked.Roars~U'll be sooooo afraid.Heh,ppl dont believe,one day must show 'em.

I'm not really the superstitious kind.But such things are fun & interesting.I might wanna go to some other fortune teller again.HA!

Maddy's real mad over her guy,I soooo can understand.Lol.Sometimes just gotta give & take or tolerate.No choice,else wont do both parties any good.Cheer up,I hate my girls being vexed or frustrated over guys.Stay happy my babes!

*A BIG thank you to Winfield.Tea tree oil from the body shop works wonder i guess.He's my pimple saviour. ;D Pimples? No fear.LOL,jk la not some miracle oil also.

YAY ! I had my maths paper 2 today,and guess wat?I can do more sums.Woah that's amazing for me.Haha i dun care if i pass,as long as i improve.AHA, I'm not hopeless after all.

Oh ya,i got my debit card alr.Soooo much nicer than the old one. :)

These kinda issue bothers me,till now i cant stand it anymore.And i super hate it.Really.For one,I hate to explain or talk them out of it and all,the worst is no point explaining or whatever when the party doesnt hear any of it and still insists on his own thinking.That sucks.

I seriously dont understand how men mind works.Majority of them always tend to leave after the girl reject them or something.Is things so bad that cant even be friends?I'm not them so i donno how it feels so cant make a judgement as well.I'm just expressing how I feel,so dont come and say I dun understand and stuff.

In retrospect,many come and go,till when will it stop or take a change.They think of themselves,and what about me.Am I emotionless or what.As though I wont feel anything when we were once buddies or friends.I value friendship,so I'd be upset as well.For some i deem them as losers,I dun care.They just cannot handle it the right way,think wat? By disappearing,it's of use.Have it ur own way then.

I'm not pinpointing anyone,so dun assume u're one of them.I just cannot stand some guys.After rejection,stop contacting and stuff.In the first place,might as well dont be friends or what.End up,worsen the situation only.I'll be glad if they can stay by my side,share our woes, fun & laughters together.I'm more of in dismal rather than feeling livid.

-The love u lost might turn out into something great,and for once u missed.U'll nvr possess it again.I strongly believe friendship lasts longer than relationship.

Sadly,we cant change a person's decison or mindset.No matter how hard we try to *brainwash them.I just hope such a cycle would stop some day.Nevertheless hope they can find their happiness.

Anyway someone hates me,for lying ?WTH. Frankly i cant be bothered to explain or whatever.It isnt my fault.I said I'll try to forget him but did I say we wont get back,like who knows what will happen.So annoyed,but yea it's up to 'em.It's not what u think.Blame me,hate me or anything.I've had enough of all this.I dont owe anyone anything.Dont like whatever,choose what u wanna do.I'm gonna be numb from all this.

Each time someone leaves,I do feel the pang of hopelessness+desolation.

Arrrgghh~ FODA!

PS:I'm just expressing my unhappiness.It's my freedom of speech,mind you.My life,my decision.

The weather's been dreadful.One min it would rain and the next it'll be scorching hot.The hot spells are simply unbearable.

Finally,two more papers to go.Im deprived of sleep,i outta get more rest.Ahhhh the huge monstrous pimple on my nose is not gone yet,instead more are appearing.Damn! I guess no other than the whole body image issue creates more turmoil inside the hearts and minds of women.Women will always be women.We are a whiny lot as well. :D

With one more try,love can still bloom between us.

I think the huge pimple that is threatening to pop out from like the middle of my nose is due to stress.Study too much,lol .Didnt wanna take a pic of it so here it is,too bored la.


Ugly drawing of mine

Anyway after fri,I can finally enjoy for ahwile.Sentosa & shopping here i come~Oh yea we're gonna have a feast again,this time jap cuisine,my fave!

Today after exam,went to amk library.Read up a few books,rather interesting and i borrowed this girls guide book to surviving tough times.I wanna get 'why men lie & women cry' by Allan & Barbara Pease.They are terrific authors i should say,they can depict and describe human being's behaviour and stuff very well.It's a good book if you wanna understand the opposite sex better.

Things are looking better now.Dont u people agree that one of the nicest feelings,is to be with someone u like and vice-versa.But dont u sometimes wish the relationship between you two could be a little more natural,a little less fixed in its rules about who has to do and say what,a little less complex? Simplicity is the best :)

Yesterday the four of us went out again,supposingly going for steamboat dinner.But yea thanks to me,by the time we meet it's alr quite late.Hence we decided to head to elsewhere cos all of us were lazy to cook.

We went to city link mall and eventually saw New york New york,it has nice ambience and also the food looks appetizing.We walked past a table and saw a gigantic burger,no kiddin.I bet u cant finish it off urself.We're going back again to try it next time.Ha.

We ordered pasta.And boy,it sure tastes good.Love it!




Mine,mine!

Kansie's food.

Goodnite's.Darn his one taste better.

After having the pasta,we were too full to have any desserts.Sucha pity.Cos the desserts there are like so irresistibly tempting.Nvm,we'll be going there again.


Fondue nvr fails to melt me ;)

So,foodie who loves western cuisine,u should try it out.It's located at citylink mall,quite near TCC.IT's like a must-go okay.Lol

Afterwards went back,and we saw this cute lil stray cat.I went to play with it,feel like bringing home la.


The cute cat and urs truly.


SUPER DUPER CUTE!

Ahhhh so darn cute.I wanna own a cat,I know i've been saying this for like 87436584362 times.But cant help it la,i've been yearning for it.Someone,bring me a cat pls!HA.

This week is going to be a tough week,so many papers which im weak in.After this week gotta enjoy abit.

It just sucks la,as if it doesnt hurt.I donno how to make situation better,only worsen.Explaination doesnt help.I donno how to communicate for now. Things just cant seem to work out.
It seems to be diminishing.* Heavyhearted

I'm so gonna flunk my maths paper.Bloody hell,so difficult.I tot maybe can pass then can get reward like shopping.Damn!To hell with maths !~

I feel drained out,both physically and mentally.Exams are stressing and irritating.I wanna have my long beauty sleep.Ahhh,lady red visited too.It's just a sucky week+no fun.

Anyway i've had enough of my idiotic bro,his bloody attitude & the stuff he says really pisses me off.Wth la,at his age still wanna complain my daddy's biased.Shit it okay.Just shut the hell up cos i have no wish to talk to him also.Ppl talk nicely also reply like f. @%#$#&%!

Take for instance ytd,suddenly say wat i dun wanna study,fail o's better,argghhh!None of his business la,talk so much.As if i really didnt study.I think if I dun stay here we wouldnt be on such bad terms,cos he wont feel jealous.Duh~Like it's my fault.Living in yishun just sucks la.Amk better.

People also assume that brothers dotes on sisters alot.Lemme tell u,that's freaking BULLSHIT.

Yesterday during dinner I saw my beloved fren,frogs again.Haha,it's a delicacy alrite.Simply love it.Alrite dear frog,i shall have u soon. XD

Sudden thought: If the story'The frog who turns into a prince' really exists,i guess before mine turns into one I'd have gobble him up.LOL. crap.

Oh great,finally met up with lim,been missing her.But too bad maddy didnt come,that pig keep sleeping.Ha.

Anyway not gonna talk abt exam,it's simply boring la.Well talked to minmin,she told me some stuff.I think kinda wasted la.But yea made me realised that there's actually more to it,girls do think alot and also try to hide it by appearing happy in another way.So torturing.

Well whatever it is,i know my girls will stand by me and so will I.I just hope they can be happy and not always cry or feel upset.Girls just wanna have fun!Gossiping is also our habit.How nice to have a planet with all girls only.U girls rock my world! :D

PS: Anyone knows how to bake a yummy cake ?Teach me,wont u ? *Pleads

I went to the gym ytd.I ran for at least 2 km okay. =D It's kinda nice when u sweat like a pig.I seriously need to slim down,now's like the heaviest i ever got,sooooo upset.I wanna buy the tummyflat product thingy.HA.

Pics ytd after gym.

Retards,but not me.HA!



Tongue out =P

Trying to act as if got muscle.

Today chi paper wasnt that easy,paper 2 passages like so chim,nevertheless can pass la.Confident,ha.

My dear maddy's feeling all miserable & upset.Hate to see her in such plight cos it's always like that.How funny & strange love is,when both parties still like each other but not together.Sometimes I feel that w/o love u might not feel so unhappy after all.But love's like essential.Contradicting though.

For this era,there's definitely no long lasting love.U can happily fantasize about the future,those happy times together;living under the same roof,romantic dinners & walks,cosy moments on the couch.STOP,u're just building castle in the air,it wont happen or rather it will but end eventually.So sad but true.

I'm more of the fantasy/fairytale kinda girl,however I know i'm just living in a fool's paradise.But fond illusions are so magical,no harm imagining.Seriously I feel like getting married NOW,but i doubt i will ever.I'm being paradoxical again~

In short,love is full of complexities.Many are blinded by it,including me i guess.Haha.

I wanna go sing,sing,sing!!Anyone ? =D

Indulging on my salmon cheese-sticks & pizza now.Yummy!Anything cheesy,love it.

You may be out of my sight but never out of my mind.Misses.

Prelim has started.Today english paper was a disaster,think i screwed it.No more A1 this time i guess.haha.I was damn tired la,compo not of much content,low standard la.Compre worse still,i keep falling aslp.One teacher even came to wake me up . >.<

After school went to pizzahut with kansie and winfield,crap alot abt crazy stuff.Saw serene and her fren,bear too.Such a coincidence,that pizzahut girl,everytime go there see her one.lol.Anyway didnt finish the lasagne,not much appetite.

Hmm after last night,i really know wat i want,cos i sort of cant do w/o him but to change my lifestyle too much is like alil absurd.Cant complain much too,but i donno how then his mindset would change alil flexible.But it's hard after all those stuff which happened.I hate things to appear so simple but yet so complex.

I bought new eyelashes again.Weee,im happy. I wanna buy new mascara too,many things on my shopping list.Spendthrift la,cant help it. :D

I guess im off to the gym with school clique or just laze ard at home.

Mixed feelings,seems like there's a load,cant get it off my chest.Darn.

How time flies.It's the last day of my one week holiday.It feels as though there's like a magnet stuck onto me,constantly repelling from the same pole,which is the school.But well,am I glad that there's only a few weeks left.

Summary of my precious one week holiday:Revise,revise,revise.Sleep & sleep+SICK.NO shopping,Sentosa or whatsoever.I think it's the most boring holiday ever.Wth. Positive outlook: Not much of frivolous spending.

However I didnt get to revise all of the subjects,mostly just Maths.I've got so much to revise.Think next two weeks gonna be mugging all the way.I'm leading such a boring life.Darn.Nvm,just endure first.

Nevertheless I think fri was the best day.LOL.No more emptiness feeling i guess.Simply love 'moments doux'. I think it's fine to chase this fantasy,which is of great significance to me.Just see how things go.3,2,1 game rocks.HA!

I wanna meet up with them asap.Seems like it's been donkey's years since i last catch up with them.

Current mood:

I woke up at 7.30.Kinda amazing.I wouldnt get up so early.But couldnt stand it la,keep shivering,feel as though im dying.I woke Daddy up too,to make me warm milk.He brought me to the doc,waited for so long,sickening.I had high fever,feel as though my arms and limbs cant move also,totally weak.

I had a JAB on my BUTT,i think it feels good.HAHA! As in after that i feel much better,as though i recover already.I wanna go out so badly,staying at home makes me feel even more sick.Duh~

Anyway had a nice chat with Daddy,I dun think i hate him at all after all.It's just the constant nagging which irks me greatly.He might wanna go Holland to look for my aunty,i wanna go too!

I hope im able to go sentosa tmr. Im so stubborn,sick still wanna go play.Ha,hope i dun faint.

I'm in love with the song 'Doing too much' by Paula Deanda ft babybash. Stacie orrico's 'I'm not missing you' is not bad too. :)

Anyone wants a jab?HA!

For an unwell person,i ought to be in bed now.However i cant get to sleep and i dun wish to sleep.I've been sleeping the whole day throughout.What a waste of day.I was suppose to revise,dammit.

The splitting headache is killing me,think running a fever as well.Man,i hate it.I feel totally weak,no appetite at all also.Only had a small bowl of soup.Wonder how i can stand it.HA!Oh dizzy spells wont u get away~

I'm feeling all frustrated and grouchy.I freaking hate headaches.I plan to go sentosa on sat but now probably have to be cancelled.I dun even feel like talking,it just suck so bad.

Daddy's taking a sabbatical from work now,however he still feels grumpy even though he aint working.He even told me he feels like going somewhere to hole up for a period of time.Even adults are sick of the society and wants to escape from reality.

Sometimes i do reflect on myself,I donno what's the problem with me also.Always do things which i regret,i donno why the hell i did it in the first place too.Perhaps emotions rule over my head,just a moment of folly.But it is not a good excuse too.

Many a times,we try our best to do what we can.However there's also a voice calling from within that makes u think twice again.For fear of rejection,disappointment,failures etc. Nobody wants to make a wrong decision and regret later.

Sometimes i wish that i could sleep on and never to wake up again.

I miss my girls. ♥

I'm a bad kid today,skipped extra lessons.Haha.Such a bother la,hafta get up early in the morning.Blah~

Anyway finally met up with shawn,for dinner.Else i think he'd get real mad with me,always postpone.I know i suck for this.But i just donno how to organise time and stuff.

Hmm I realised that often we donno how much a person is suffering,becos of a person or anything.It must have hurt alot,and to suffer in silence,worse still.I really dont wish to hurt anyone.

I miss going to the beach,haha.I might be going jogging tmr with Daddy.LOL.But i hate to get up early in the morning.

Random blabbers:I think I'm improving,no cabs everyday now.Keep it up.HA.But i'm still a spendthrift,dont intend to buy anything but still insists on buying smth,else i would feel uneasy.(-_-)

I change another new blogskin,but it's so pinkish.Still on the search for one which i like.Anyway gotta thank karine for helping me cos i aint familiar with all da code thingy.Some entries are still screwed up,freaking fonts,so many problems.

The 'Krunk' party at sentosa wasnt that fun after all.This hol im gonna spend more time on revising than having fun.

This period of time is rather crucial,gotta think things thru and know what i want.I dont wanna make empty promises or whatsoever.Even if im doing too much,i know it's worth it.

My blog's so screwed up.I wanted to find a new blogskin,but many cant really work.Gotta edit and all that.Troublesome.

Nvm i'm just gonna leave it first,till then no tag board.LOL.