The party at VD was boring.But glad that I had gera lessy's company.Anyway will update again.

I'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings recently.

Wonder what's got into me,perhaps I tend to think too much.I just wanna live a carefree life and be happy everyday.But life can't be sailing smoothly all the time.

I hate to have regrets,so even if I do regret I'd just put it behind me and not bother.But still,I regretted for some of the things I did.Sometimes it's not that I want,but it just happens like that.When you know you might be doing something wrong,either you go with it or leave suavely.

Is it selfishness or being too self-centered?That you acheive your own happiness regardless of other people's welfare at heart.I guess there are times when human tend to be selfish.Probably sometimes you're too carried away by the feeling that you forget about the consequences that it's gonna bring or what it'd be like in the future.

Alright no point pondering so much,just live the life you want but with no regrets.

I believe in Karma,just wondering when it will come to me.

All the above is just some random stuff,not pinpointing anything.I want a short vacation,a sweet escape from the complexities of the world.

"A smiling face doesn't always means a smiling heart." :) / :(

29th AUGUST 2007
A significant day,as it marks another ending to our story.

Before I start typing,tears are already welled up in my eyes and it wont stop streaming down my cheeks.

How many of us have actually experienced the sweetness of true love and yet the despondency from the break up.Well,I did.

Alright as you have all guessed,we broke up again already.I know it's quite out of the blue as we seem blissfully in love.Blame it on me,I'm the selfish/bad/heartless one.

I know this could be one of the biggest mistake that I'd ever make and I might even live with the greatest regret.As I could be letting go of 'the one' for me.But still,I believe in FATE.

Sometimes when things doesnt work out anymore,you have no choice at all.Yes yes,I know some of you might say that things can always be solved/improved etc.But are you even me?Do you even know how I feel or what I have gone through?

I'm not saying that he treats me badly and all,he did not.It's just that I can sense that it's different from before.All the little different things just makes the change unquestionably distinguishable.This,I cannot deceive myself.There's other factors as well but yea...

Finally when I muster the courage to say the hateful 'break up',at that instant I could feel my heart ache.You've no idea how much it hurts me to push you away as well.Inside my heart,it's aching so badly.But I cant be soft-hearted and let things drag on.If it drags on,it'll only brings more pain and misery.

All recollections of our memories worsen the pain but still all these lovely memories will be etched in my heart forever.No one would love me like you do,thank you for everything.You taught me all about love.

I feel really remorseful.Letting go of someone you love might be the hardest thing on earth.I'm sorry for everything.But I swear I'm not fooling you or even treating you like a toy.And also it's not for my goddamn freedom.

Whenever I read his blog,I'll go all soft and emotional.Sometimes I wish this is just an illusion,but this is reality.That's life,it could bring happiness/euphoria/joy/sorrows/pain/agony etc.Very often,we can conjure our own happiness but at the same time we could destroy it with our own hands as well.

Nevertheless I still wish you happiness,I do care for you.You told me,'I'll be there for you,this I swear to you." I'll be there for you when you need my help or anything as well.

Often we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

A love lost,with nothing left but fond memories.
And these memories shall stay.Irreplaceable <3

(A video which I created ages ago.)

When you're gone,the pieces of my heart are missing you.

Yooohooo~ I'm back again,finally found the time to update.

Anyway the family & class chalet was alright only,wasnt like so damn fun.But still great times spent with the people.

Oh my god,I'm tanned again!Argh! Hate it,it wasnt easy to become slightly fairer,and now all effort from staying out from the sun has come to naught.;(

Anyway my cousins and their family have gone back to Holland already,really sad cause their stay of duration is really short.Well,have to wait till probably 2 years later then I'll get to see them.

Finally I'm heading to Sentosa on friday,with gera lessy. But strictly, no suntanning for me!

I love the 3 of them. :D

I'll miss you two,JAMIE & JANE. <3

Thank god tomorrow's the last paper.And this spells something great, HOLIDAYS. =]

Anyway the other day celebrated Granny's birthday.Boy, it was a really satisfying meal except for the dessert.There's this 'Buddha jumps over the wall' dish,direct translation.Haha.

There's so many hidden 'treasure' inside,like abalone,humongous sea cucumber etc.But I love the lobster dish the most,totally yummy.

After that stay over at yiyi's house again,we played 'Risk',first time playing it & I kinda like it.Jane is the ultimate loser cause all of us at least won once.It's fun being with them,but they will be going back soon.How sad.

Oh ya,stat's paper was a total flop.I'm bound to fail that paper,argh I'm such a Math dummy.Glad that Marketing paper wasnt that difficult.Oh well,tomorrow's the last paper. :D

Anyway gonna mia from the internet world till next tuesday.I'll be having family chalet on 24-26 & class chalet on 26-28.Wildwild wet,BBQ etc= fun-time!

Somehow a certain vibe is lacking,I wonder why.

Pictures will be uploaded when I'm back.My blog's getting boring now.

OH MY GOD.

I'm so dead,tmr's POA exam & I'm so not prepared.I really detests anything to do with MATHS.I cant seem to get used to the format and stuff,so damn confusing.

ARGH,alright back to mugging now. =/

Wish me luck for tmr's paper. *Fingers crossed.

Busy,busy.Lazy,lazy. Haha.
Alright just a short post.It feels weird if I dont blog for very long.

Just a short summary for i-dont-know which day.

-Crab feast with holland aunty & cousins etc.
-Hair & makeup session for jessica.
-Outing and not forgetting sushi session with Maddy. :)
-Sushi treat,'Flashpoint','Alone' & Rush hour 3 with baby.<3
-Presentation
-Cousins' stayover.

Okay I'm lazy to elaborate more.Haha.

By Jessica.The back of it looks nicer.

Love the cousins loads.
MK 07/02
We'll miss her.

So,like finally first semester is coming to an end.That's pretty fast.Hell yea,I cant wait for the LONG holiday.10 more days to go. :D

Quarrels are inevitable but I hope after everything it'd brings us closer and not further apart.Loves*

Whooohoooo~

My aunty & cousins are finally back from Holland for a short vacation. =D

Sheesh didnt realised that I havent been updating my blog for like 2 weeks?Okay here I am,Maddy & others stop complaining.Haha!

Anyway I've been rather busy or perhaps lazy as well.School's so dreadful man,I hate Business Software the most.I'm bound to retake that module. :(
Well,there's like tons of projects too.One due after another,gosh.Whoever said school was fun uh?Bullshit.


Some random pictures and probably overdue ones.

The double 'J' who makes my life happier.
My all-time darling. Best guy buddy ever.*Misses.
Miss Tallie.[Hope you're fine. :) ]

Dearest Baby & I.

My all-time addiction cum loverboy <3

And so,I've watched 'Invisible Target' & 'Knocked Up' with baby.Both shows weren't that bad.Been spending quality time with baby,had a Q & A session the other day.I think I know him more than he knows me.HA!Anyway he had his first performance at Heeren but I was unable to go.Nevertheless kudos to him,I promise to go for the next performance.

Exams's like in two weeks time.OMG.I've so so much to revise,all due to my laziness.Alright shall mug hard and play hard after exams. :)

You said that I was all you need beside you.I feel the same way too,baby.

Woah seems like I've been on a hiatus for some time already.Back to the blogging world.Anyway for this period of time,many things happened,both good and bad;happy and sad.

Anyway I'm so stressed as well,for some aspect.The worse thing would be I'm so short of time,time is never enough for me.I've got so many things to do and all that and I cant fulfil everyone's needs as well.

The wonderful people. :)


I still got 3 freakin' projects on hand.God,I hate it. =/

All we need is a mixture of understanding,care,frankness,
trust and most of all, l-o-v-e.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :D
Hope he likes the sweet card and present.

Somewhere down there hurts alil' or more each time.
I'm just in a lousy mood.
I've so so much to say but somehow I cant express myself.
I think I wanna change to xanga or wordpress soon,so I can lock some of the entries that are more personal.
Or probably keep a secret diary like how I used to.

I think I was too naive to thought of the world as almost perfect.
Sometimes I just feel that I'm alone although there's many who will be there for me.
Nvm about all this,I guess I just spell unhappiness to you.
Yes tomorrow will always be better than yesterday,that's what I hope.

I wonder if I'm really unlucky or simply clumsy.

Guess what?I fell down AGAIN the day before.Two falls in a week,omg I feel so humpty dumpty.Alright that's so random. Anyway the wounds arent recovering fast,and I think there will be scars.Argh,how to heal it w/o leaving a scar?

Today had a feast again,it was to celebrate my dearest mummy's birthday.Gosh,butter crabs is l-o-v-e.

By the way yesterday, we had another round of monopoly championship again.This time the guys were the winner,haha!

Awww I missed seeing Edison on 'Initial D' just now.I love watching him in shows,so darn cute!

Yikes, school's starting tomorrow.I kinda dread going to school,or probably I just hate to wake up in the morning.

This post is so random,alright back to school mode.
Toodles~

So like my one week of break is wasted due to my injuries,no sentosa or whatsoever. :(

In fact I don't feel like going out cause it's such a hassle to walk.My knee's still hurting.But on a happier note,I'm glad that the lost flesh on my big toe is growing back.Haha.I just hope it won't leave another ugly scar on my knee.

Yesterday was such a sinful day,ate a lot of stuff which I shouldn't be eating.Yes,no doubt I'm gonna turn into a fatty bombom.

Anyway hope to enjoy the weekend before the short break ends.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO YINGWEI! :)


Sometimes love is very special.
You feel it so deep in your heart.
It's not a love you were seeking,
but a love where fate played a part.

You have such a warm and glorious feeling.
Whenever that person is near,
you know they'll never know,
that this is the way you feel.

Love is like a clinging vine,
it just keeps growing and growing.
But sometimes you begin to wonder,
just where this love is going.

I'll make sure our love will always stay,
locked up in my heart.
Because this is a very special love,
a love that will NEVER depart.
Je t'aime,amoureux.

Today was our class bbq,it was held at east coast park.

Awesome class,MK 07/02. :)
Like more than half of the class turned up,but too bad didnt take any pictures.Anyway I love the chicken wings & squid,yummy!

It was rather fun however the boo-boo part was I had a bad fall.I sustained quite a few injuries,but the worst was my knee,like the flesh could be seen.Eeeew,it hurts so bad.Seriously I think I'm jinxed with bicycles.Since young I've had countless falls whenever I ride,resulting to all the ugly scars.

I should have a phobia for it,but nah I'm a tough lady.HAHA.
But I'm fragile now,any contact with the wounds hurts real bad. :(

Sometimes I do reminisce the past.....

Today's dinner at No signboard seafood restaurant was superb.
The crabs tastes oh-so-heavenly!Besides they were really HUGE,totally satisfy our craving.
Gosh,the word 'FOOD' never seems to leave my mouth for once.HA!

Oh no,tmr there's a dinner for fathers' day celebration as well.My aim is to slim down,not freaking add on excess fats!I'm gonna be a fat chick,damn.

And monday is our class Bbq,man how to resist?!Will someone kindly please ask me along for gym/jogging session?I'd appreciate it lots,haha!

I simply hate projects,they are such a bother.Especially doing it during holidays.*Shrugs

Anyway yesterday after chilling out at Starbucks,we headed to Sebas's house.The four of us played Powerpuff girls version of 'Monopoly'.It was quite fun & Sebas was the first to withdraw from the game cause he became bankrupt,following by Baby.Yea we won,girls rules but Genn is the big winner! ;p

I cant wait for 'Song of The Sea',fondue, more board games session etc!


HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Dear Daddy,may u stay happy & healthy always.
Love you,like always. :)

Sometimes I think I enjoy cooping up at home alone.

It's the only time when the pace seems to slow down.Very often we get so caught up with life that we don't even have time to sit down and take a look at the changes in our life.

Today I realised many things changes.Sadly,things doesnt remain the same from the start till the end.

I'm gonna start with friendship.How many of us can actually maintain a good & close relationship with all the friends around us? It takes two hands to clap.If one party doesnt put in effort then it'd all come to naught.

As for best friends,when time keeps both apart, the sign of drifting apart will show.Seriously I dont like the feeling when I'm not as close with my best friends as before.

When it comes to love, it is everything but perfect.Quarrels are inevitable.Problems arises after one and another and no way it wont surface again.I,for one believe that love is more than making choices and sacrificing.

I know everyone will have their own mindset,thus we cant blame anyone if there's a argument when it comes to their own concept.Each individual will remain their stand and refuse to budge,therefore the conflicts are never-ending.

Anyway I've learnt the art of tolerance.As long as it's worth it then it's alright.I'm a horrible & self-centered girlfriend.I guess even a handbook of 'How to be a good girlfriend' wont help in any way too.He is in misery & each time I'm only adding on to it and not reducing.Bad Cassy,wont you be good for once?

Sometimes you have to give up some things in order to keep something more precious by your side.

My heart just felt a plunge,my strong clairvoyance is sending signals.
Things are beyond my control.
A thousand apologies for hurting you,baby.
Maybe I'm really not worth your love.

ps:Just some random thoughts,I still love each and everyone. :)

Finally it's the 2 weeks holiday now.G-r-e-a-t!

Aww but then it's such a short break,1 month would be just nice.Hoho.
Alright therefore I should make full use of this short holiday.

• Sentosa outing.
• K-ing session.
• Work out at gym.*
• SHOPPING SPREES
• Lastly,meet up with friends whom I have not seen for donkey years.

Anyway 'School's out' @ DXO.It was an uniform party.Only sold tix and left rather early.

My dear lessy.

Parties with themes are cool,I like. :)

Oh yay tmr would be the last test,POA.It's like the worst test,no wait but I think it couldnt sucks more than the business application one.Stupid IT stuff,I'm bound to flunk that.So pathetic,cant even do half of it ,merely a quarter.Damn,I'm such a dummy at IT stuff.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for poa as well,cos I'm not clear of the concept.But still thanks to Pearleen who taught me today.Think of ICAs kinda dampen my mood but the thought of two weeks break actually overtook it and made me slightly happier.

Till now,I still cant forget the scene at the crematorium.It's simply heart-wrenching to see a family grieving over a member's death.Therefore there's this cliche saying,'Cherish what you have before it's gone or else you'd regret'.Let's just cherish the people around us cos u wont know when they'll be gone.Life's really unpredictable.

Anyway it's been two months with baby. Hope we'll stay blissful. :)

Byebye ICAs,hello holiday ! =D
(Happy belated birthday to dear Chienyu & Jason seah too!)

This coming week I'll be having 3 ICAs.Gosh ,gotta start muggin'.Anyway got 24.5/30 for marketing.Ha,not bad.

Tuesday caught Pirates of the Carribean with baby,gen,adelia,sebas,jj & ks.It was a rather nice show,Johnny depp's character is one funny one.Wednesday was like sports day for our class.We played basketball,frisbee and abit of tennis.I kinda like tennis,it's fun.Pams clique rocks too. :)

Sometimes words are fatal enough.

Daddy's back from thailand,kinda sad that I couldnt go.I miss the food there. Sorry for today baby,I know I'm not a good gf.I'm not anything u wanted or expected.It's been hard on u for putting up with it.:(

MAY BABIES. :D

Sentosa outing on 12th May. :)

Photos will be uploaded soon.But yea this year my birthday wasnt as fantastic or anything.Cos I didnt plan properly,plan cancelled and I didnt meet some of them.But still thanks to all for the wishes, gifts & celebration. :)

Alright so I'm not in a great mood now either,unhappy stuff happened within two days.How fucked up is that.Sometimes bad things just come at one go.

Happiness,have you gone missing?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF ! ! ! :D
*Shall update again.

My lappy internet's down,thus I cant blog as often,okay that serves as an excuse.Haha.Slowly, the enthusiasm of blogging is fading or probably simply due to laziness.

I have missed out updating on so many stuff and now I remember nuts abt them.I think my lifestyle is pretty mundane now,I need more zest man.It's more like school only,I havent hang out with Maddy,Soh,Gera & bB for damn long already.At least I still get to hang out with Adelia & Genn. Plus I havent shop for ages I think,how lifeless is that.

On the other hand,something to get excited over is my birthday! It's in a week time,but I didnt really plan.As in like organise chalet or something,cos it's seems so troublesome.Therefore,will be celebrating with some of my cliques. =D

Anyway it's been a month for us already.Actually longer than that though.Ha.It's a bliss being with you baby,more months of happiness to come. :)

Miss yanyan's birthday kiss. ;D

I've been real lazy for april,always not updating my blog.HA.

Anyway gonna update more tmr.This post is to voice out my unhappiness towards this ripping off photo issue.

Apparently,someone took a few pictures off from my blog and post it on sggirls.com.That's really rude.Although it isnt protected but then he shouldnt post it on some web also.So infuriating.

Anyone knows how to enable the 'no copying' of anything from blog ?Otherwise,any one can easily get hold of them.Damn,that sick guy outta get a life.

School life's been keeping me rather occupied.I kinda like this lifestyle I suppose.At least I'm not wasting my time away.

Oh,and Daddy got me a laptop.Although I didnt specially requested for it,cos it's for school use.But still wanna thank Daddy for it,cos he spend a lot of money on my stuff.Think the only way to repay him is to show him results.

I hate the fact that I have to carry the laptop and thick books around,it's damn heavy.Simply makes one more irritated,cos the hot weather is frustrating enough.I'm gonna get a locker with the girls,it's so much more convenient.

Anyway one of the main reason I like my class is because we're united.Hence it makes the class more fun.Especially with my dear miss yanyan & 'lame' huihui. :)

But it's like complicating cause there's so many notes,tutorial questions all that.U have to read it urself.That's the bad part about it.No self-discipline=No progress.

Alright enough about studies.OH ya,I've yet to upload photos of my new hairstyle,though it's no biggie.And I wanna go Sentosa this week!I have lesser time now,but still hope to meet Maddy & clique+ the girls soon.

Weekdays stay over at Yishun just sucks.So far,totally no point.

*I'm so addicted to you.<3

Alright,so today was first day of school.It wasn't as bad as I thought.Haha.I think I'm beginning to like my class more now. MK 07/02 :)

My classmates seems like a pretty fun buncha people.Oh life in poly's like kinda different from secondary school.I think it's much more relaxing & the time passes really fast too.I'm gonna study hard,cos it wasnt easy getting into the course.And if I dun strive hard for it,then all my effort will be wasted.

Anyway first day of school only,and I saw many familiar faces.Like such a coincidence,even my friendster friends.Gawd.Oh well,I'm starting to like school life now I guess.

So I didnt perm my hair after all,cos it wont look nice.Now my hair's kinda short and there's streaks of red hair as well.Some told me that I look punk/rock chick with it,like wth.Though it's a new change but I so hate my hair cos it's real hard to manage.It's not longer as smooth as before.Blah,just gotta wait for it to grow.

Omg,school's starting tmr.No,more like a few hours time.Haha.I still cant adapt to the 'sleep early,wake up early' lifestyle.I think I dread going to school as well,cos I donno most of my classmates yet.I hope it'll be a rather great day ahead.

Anyway went to Adelia's chalet for her birthday celebration.Shall update tmr.
New hair,new environment,new friends.

Friendship is fragile after all,so much misunderstanding & stuff.I wouldnt wanna lose any one of my precious ones.

Anyway I've been spending a lot this one week plus.I'm damn happy cos I got my Guess schbag alr.First time I bought smth using my own money,heart ache la.But then it's worth it,it's like 210 bucks but got discount and so it's ard 160bucks.I love my bag. :D

Oh finally I did smth to my BORING HAIR.And goddammit,it S-U-C-K-S totally.I regretted la,cos my long hair's gone now. =( My hair's like short can,medium length.ARGH~
Ks cut for me then later his mentor touch up alil',and now I've got bangs and my hair is suppose to be messy kind. Tmr gonna perm it,cos it's soooo awful.If I know gonna perm ,then I wouldnt chop away my long locks.Grrr~ I cant be bothered alr,since it's alr like that.Hope tmr it'll look better.New change,but ugly,fugly & watever.

Everything's going real well for us.Haha and he's really sweet to get me Hello Kitty stuff,knowing that I like them a lot.Plus,he's very nice.I'm so elated that he has become a much more better bf. XD

Today was orientation,and it's extremely boring.But I'm glad to know a few girls,my very first friend in nyp.Margaret :)
I left halfway cos I couldnt stand the boredom,aint going for orientation tmr.Blah.

L-O-V-E is in the air .... Nana & Cassy <3
Nana and I got back together again,despite being apart for a few months.At last,we're still together.I'm happily attached now. :) Seriously this one year plus have been both happy & tormenting.Officially,we've only been together for a few months and things drag on.Problems keep arising and all that.

All along I didnt give up,only till this year.I've even tried to like other ppl,tho' I cant find any whom I fancy.Only had a crush on cutie pie,but yea we're nth more than friends.But still he's my favourite eye candy.Oops,boyfriend's gonna see this.But well,Nana's still my all-time love. ;)

I'm really glad that he did put in effort.As for now, happiness surrounds me.I'm ecstatic!Cos it ain't easy getting together,and things couldn't be any better than before.I think wat's really sweet is that we were secondary sweethearts.It's alr been a few yrs & amazingly the sparks between us still exists.

Okay so byebye to swingin' single life.Haha!I love my baby to bits. =D

Hmm,something new for my blog.Now it doesnt lack of love life anymore.Ohhh,life's all great now.Okay probably only the moolah issue.Heh.My shopping list is like never-ending.Alrite,enough of those.Time for pictures.Taken during party at DXO on 7th.


Organisers for 'BROOKLYN ROCK'.There's many others who's not in it.


Gary,ME & Gonggong. =) Friendly uncle from nightlife I guess.HA.


Great people. :D


The LES partner who always takes advantage of me. XD

Maddy's birthday chalet was a success.Haha no one puked or anything.
And we ended up playing mj till morning.I lost again,50 in two days. Sickening.
I'm gonna ditch mj aside for awhile,then save money to buy my stuff.Heh.

Anyway will upload her pic soon after she send me.Talk abt pics ,gera hasn't send me all yet.
Gosh,holidays are coming to an end. =(
Oh,I just realised the 102 girls are reunited again,in NYP.Evan,Kaihua & M-E! :D
Will update again.Toodles~

Great,have been resting at home for two days.I'm down with a bad cold.Gah~Anyway it's gonna be a hectic week or rather 2 weeks.Oh,and by then sch has just started.

Anyway I lost 1KG,omg I'm sooo happy.Though it's just a mere 1000g.Haha!
Headed to Sentosa with my dear Gera & Jaclyn.Damn it rained.
But nevertheless,had fun camwhoring.Shall head to the beach again this week.

Oh,by the way I think my parents are such darlings.
They know I go to clubs and they're not against it.Cool.
Think when I'm 18,shall ask my Daddy along with my cool aunty & uncle to St.James. :)

Tmr's my darling Maddy's 18th birthday.I hope it'll be a fun-filled night.

Lastly,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NICKY & GEN. :D
je vous manque

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BABYSITTER,LIM =D
Hope u enjoyed ur birthday & cheers to our 7 yrs of friendship!*loves

Cool Slideshows

Slowly,everyone's turnin' 18.Like zoom,and the time just passed by.
Oh yay,soon it's gonna be my turn.But maddy first,I'm anticipating to her bday chalet.

I'm sucha MAHJONG freak,like addicted to it.I donno why I enjoy playing it so much either.HA!
Anyway have been doing my poly enrolment stuff,it was a real hassle.
Gawd,I'm eyeing on so many things right now.
There's my schbag which costs 200bucks,more clothes etc..
I need more moolah pls.Haha.

This week is a lifeless one.Dun wanna spend too much cash on unnecessary stuff.
Shall focus on working out,I wanna go for a swim or a jog or prolly head to the gym.
Like wow?!But yea,gotta do it.Else there's no way those stubborn fats will go off.
I've actually started drinking mineral water EVERYDAY which I personally detests a lot.
This is alr a big step,cos I can drink like only one/two glasses in a week or longer.So unhealthy.
But I'm not becoming some health freak la,I still love my food as much. :D

I've decided to take up marketing instead of BI.

Finally came back to yishun hse to stay for a night.
Daddy's been whining abt it like a small kid.But can understand why he's so unhappy cos he only gets to see me like once a week.

Alrite partying shall stop.Too much of it makes one sick of it.
Anyway I got my red heels,it's damn high.Makes me like 5 cm taller?
But it hurts so much.Grrrr~

I've been ranting on abt my hair but yet nth's done to it till now.
Suddenly I cant bear to see my long,straight tresses gone.But yet I keep complaining how boring it looks.I'm so fickle-minded.
Long locks or curly hair? *Dilemma

I'm SOOO looking forward to the gathering if we're gonna meet this thursday.
I miss the secondary sch clique loads. :)
The missing piece :D

Momo on thurs was initially boring,but the party got better after that.
And it was s-u-p-e-r tiring.Even mighty pingping also cannot take it.HA!
Madam wong later on,this week club 4 times,that's insane+exhausting.

Anyway I'm so so proud of myself.I actually overcome my fear for DOGS.
But it's only one dog,which is weien's doggy.
I have a phobia for dogs,whenever a dog is rather near to me.I'd have this niggling fear within.
However I love weien's dog to bits,so darn cute.It seems harmless thus I'm not afraid at all.
*Kudos to ME :D

Damn,I just won mj the other day and the next day I lost 16bucks.Wth.I sucked at it.Haha.
I even dreamt of mahjong,but I'm real good in my dreams.Not in reality though.
Gawd two more weeks to orientation I guess,it just makes my heart palpitates faster.
I wanna lead a healthier lifestyle,which means workin' out.But I'm sucha lazy bum.
Alrite going out to search for my seductive red heels now.Or smth nice.

Ytd wasnt really fun,clubbing mode isnt on.
Anyway the appeal was successful and I got marketing.
But I donno which should I choose,business informatics or marketing?
Shall check with nyp tmr if i can reject the latest course they post me to.

Oh yay finally I win in mahjong,I keep losing la.
Even tho' I keep losing,I still like playing it.Haha.
I wanna get my hair dyed,only then I can perm.
But I keep procrastinating. XD
Alrite back to playing mahjong now.Toodles~

Headed to clinic ytd,the party wasnt that fun.
Wat matters is I enjoy dancing with the girls. :D
Oh,and it's great to see nicky there too.

Anyway I got into NYP,business informatics.
Soonwee told me it's tough,damn.Ha.
The thought of going to school on the very first day just freaks me out alil'.

My lifestyle's pretty much boring,I need some z-e-s-t pls.
Heading to St.james later on,I'm not expecting it to be real fun tho'.
The days just got wasted as time pass by.
Even tho we've moved on,it gets so hard to walk away.

Tmr the posting result will be out and I guess I'll most probably end up in Nyp.

Anyway dun have the feel to blog.So yea short entry.Gawd.I'm sucha lazy bum.I need to dye my hair and wait for like 2 wks before I can perm it.And I've yet to get it dyed.Duh.

Glad to meet the girls last sat,but didnt spend much time tgth.But well,nvm.Cos we gonna party soon,yay.'The appointment' @ CLINIC C on 11th .

I'm going Sentosa tmr,I hope. =D
Havent been there for such a long time.
So more pics uploaded soon~



Take one.uh gen's being cut.Ha.

Tada,all in. :)

The girls whom I cherish and love loads. <3
It's not how it should be...feeling alil lost.

I've yet to get my haircut.Wth,cos been staying over at Maddy's place and we tend to sleep in the morning so always wake up late.And by the time,all the salons were closed.

But well,nvm cos I've decided to perm my hair.Yes,PERM. :)
Maddy perm her hair alr,and I think it looks nice.At least something new rather than the usual straight hair.If I perm my hair as well,that makes us the curly-wurly clan.HA!Maddy,Soh + ME.Cool,first time we got curls at the same time.

Woah, few days of incessant mahjong.I'm beginning to get better at it.But still I dun really enjoy playing it,just for leisure.

I wonder where my expenses went to,this mth is the worst.Soon gonna be abt 1k.Gosh.Anyway gonna meet my dearest gonggong gera tmr.Ahhh I miss the other girls loads~

The horrible meanie is gonna change her sickening attitude. I shall not be so tyrannical.HA!

I cant wait to perm my hair.Those lovely curls. =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINMIN SWEETIE & dear buddy,WINFIELD! :)

Tmr will be going to Kimage to have my new haircut,Maddy wants to perm her hair too.I cant wait to see her with curls.If it's nice I might wanna perm too.Yay!We're gonna shop and eat to our hearts' content,that's therapy for us.

I wanna pierce my naval alr,but I gotta abstain from seafood for like a mth or so.Such a torture,being deprived of my fav food.I still cant bear to stay away from abalone and stuff yet.Haha!

I've severe moodswing but well I always look happy. :)

I think only a silly dodo like me would stay up this late to blog just becos I'm feeling too bloated from all those prata.How I regret consuming it,adds on more unwanted carbo to my already BIG tummy.

Anyway as usual,been idling and chilling with the 'slacking' clique.Went Dxo on 19th,had pretty much fun with them.Ahh,and I won 30+ from gambling,not too bad.HA!Have been spending money like water as well,bad bad.But nvm,I enjoy the happiness from it. :D

I've a whole load of stuff that I wanna express but well it's still hard to put it into words as it cant exactly depicts how I really feel.

I've yet to move on after the last relationship.It could be due to I put in a lot of effort and heart into it.Yes,we've already broken up but somehow it's just really hard to let go of a romance which was once beautiful etc ...I don't know how to heal or move on and not expect my future relationships to be like the one I had.

But yet somehow something's stopping me from reconciling as well,I hate to be in this predicament.Neither this or that,then wat ?I'm at loss wat to do.

Do I move back or on?
Under such a situation,it's wise to look at the pros & cons of a possible relationship.There's many factors to consider as well.Like wat were the reasons for breaking up and if we did broke up over them once, wat makes me think they won't be a problem again in the future.

I've got to be honest with myself,is this a lonely period for me so I want him back?Totally no,cos I've frens to accompany me.Could it be Im too used to him,I guess so.But the girls said it's like that,hafta slowly get used to w/o him.I think I love him too much thus I cant come to a decision.That period of time was really heart-wrenching and excruciating and I tried damn hard to get over the tough phase.When all my hopes and faith was gone,u just came back again.It aint that easy to make it complete once again.

U wont understand wat I went through.U thought I didnt wanna give u a chance,but if I could I'd agree readily like how I used to.I wouldnt give it a second thought cos nvr thought that we'd have the chance to reconcile.But I just didnt want history to repeat itself nor do I want to get hurt so badly again.Seriously just a short period of time of waiting and all that doesnt seems like doing too much to me.I dun wanna make any comparison as well.

Sometimes one doesnt think back and reflects on oneself's behaviour and all that.Then when they actually undergo it,only then they realised how it feels.It's only till one experience it then understands the agony of it.By then the timing and all that is already wrong,that's when regrets starts to surface.

I cant deny those old feelings deep down inside as well as those wonderful memories.Those days were the best times of my love life.If I really let go,I could be letting go of the right one for me.And I might never find a love so intense ever again.

I dun wanna invest any more useless time,effort and all that for something that isnt going to go anywhere.On the other hand,if the problems can be resolved and we could start with a clean state.I wouldnt mind trying again.But somehow after so many tries,things doesnt change.So I've my doubts and this niggling fear abt it.


Silly insecurites are clouding my judgement.
Hopes of having him as a precious part of my life.
To grow from experience w/o feeling bitter,
and walk away as a lady a little more dignified?
Or stay and mend the broken love once again,
and indulge in a beautiful love that I yearn for?
Letting go or patching up is the beginning of new transition in my life.


Most importantly where's my enthusiasm of being in love.
By a certain time,I'll have the answer and I'll make sure it's the right decision.
Those fond memories are still vivid,but wat will fate brings us?

Back from Maddy's chalet.it was ratehr fun but then alcohol ruined it.HA.

Jasmine was alil tipsy and turned ditzy,keep blabbering.Think she bottled her feelings inside for too long also.And weicheng vomitted.Eeeew.

It's Chinese New yr.But somehow there's not much atmosphere.

I've got lots to say,but I donno how to put it across in a way that u can understand.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ! <3

Yesterday celebrated V-day with Maddy,Soh,Weien,Jali,Jeremy ong,another Jeremy & Bearbear.At last didnt meet up with anyone,cos I slept till 8 plus.Cabbed down to look for them.

Jeremy is one crazy rich fella,bought roses for me for fun.Saw the girls as well,I kissed like 5 girls in total .Haha.Anyway watch a movie and slack till morning.It's just like any other day. :)

STAYOVER AT MADDY'S HOUSE

Cool Slideshows

My buddies for many yrs :)

HAPPY V-DAY TO ALL !

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!

I PASSED !I GOT 18 POINTS . =D

I'm extremely happy la,cos it's really unexpected.L1R4+CCA=14 .I've got many choices to choose from now,how nice!I tot I might fail Maths again or get 24 cos last yr got 26.I freakin' pass MATHS,tho' only C6.Haha!And best thing is my english got A2,last yr was D7,think they really mark wrong.Oh,and I got A1 for Chinese as well.

I CAN GO POLY NOW~

I'm so glad that I pass,at least didnt disappoint my Daddy and myself.He's really happy as well,he even book a table at Orchard Hotel for dinner.I cant stop smiling now. :D

Time for celebration!More shopping for me now.YAY!

HELLO ppl,now I declare Im JOBLESS once again. Haha!

I've decided not to work there anymore.This job is supposingly to be my longest job but ha, now the shortest record is just one day.Not that I cannot take it or anything,I just dun like it so that's it.So idiotic,always change the schedule.Plus I dun think I can do a good job.

Anyway enjoyed yesterday with Geraldine & Jac,had a day out shopping and chilling.I had jap cuisine for two days straight,kinda sick of it now.My dear gonggong's like a pig la,eat so much.Haha!I'll hafta wait till CNY's over then can meet her to hang out cos no off day for her till then.

Currently I'm in a shopping spree mood,weeeee~

Shucks,I'm getting O's result on Friday.So soon,but well I'm prepared for it.Be it good or bad.But if I happen to fail Maths again,it's like so ..... I dun like ppl commenting abt it,but whatever.Let's see how it goes.

What's with the negative comments regarding me working? HAHA.So not supportive la.I'm trying hard alrite. I deserve a pat on the shoulder. :)

Anyway I only worked for a day since then,cos the beginning gotta try out first.Well it wasnt as tough & tiring as I thought.The best thing is I get to SIT,how great!Standing for 10 hrs straight is totally insane.Oh and I can buy stuff to eat anytime,and the colleagues were friendly.

The booboo part abt it is I hafta rmb the product stuff,like what does each has its functions etc.I'm not really eloquent when it comes to promoting products.Sometimes I find myself wanting to speak out but my voice just doesnt comes out.It's a good experience I suppose,can not only make me more independent and also acquire better communication skills.

Oh,Daddy visited me too.It was a nice surprise tho',he always makes the effort to visit me whenever I get a new job .Maddy,Lim & Nic wee visited me as well,so nice of them.Gee,and some went there but couldnt find me cos I'm not working everyday.Tues I'll be working with Soh,damn happy cos I've got a companion.

Gosh,I had a boring wkend.Nvm abt that,this week I shall shop & head to Sentosa.

Suddenly feel that guys can be fickle as well,not only girls. I do not like the fact that ppl do change after some time,be it their attitude or behaviour.It irks me greatly.Now,where has the faith gone to?

Valentine's day nearing but there's no excitement or anything at all,unlike last yr.Cos I wont be dating with any of the guys,it'd be a waste of time cos they're not like my potential bf.I'd rather celebrate with my dear girls.Come to think of it,the release of O's result is actually nearer than that.HA!Gahhh I'm extremely nervous~

STAYOVER AT ADELIA"S HSE.(some time back)

Cool Slideshows

Alrite not having a bf isnt that sad after all.I've got my precious ones. :)
It is always refreshing to seek solace from turbulent thoughts & emotions and have girls night out,another way to unwind and have an insouciant night of fun with my gfs.Skipped last outing thus I'm soooo gonna meet them soon!

I've got my SECOND JOB! Haha.

This morning received a sms and a missed call,she wanted Soh & I to start work.I'm starting work on 2nd feb,which is Friday.So shitty,cos I wanna enjoy my wkend.I guess I'll hafta forgo my Sentosa trip. =(

The working hours is like 10am-8 pm.Gawd,so early.Anyway it's at AMK hub,basement 1.Ppl do visit me,especially girls.Get make up stuff from there.It's like a makeup bar.Some are in pretty & cute packages. :)

Hope this time can at least lasts longer than my first job,which is a week.Haha.I'm going shopping tmr,not much time if I start working.I'm anticipating yet I dun feel like working.Damn.Now,ppl cant say I'm weak or anything.I did get a job like I said,I think I can do it.Just gottta endure those long hours.

Maddy is gonna be so upset,no one to irritate her.Ha.Cos I am suppose to go her hse on friday,but now there's work.I cant stay over.Awww~

Bad sore throat and cough for many days alr,coughing is like so tormenting.Grrr~

Oh,I forgot to thank Rom for helping me with my blogskin codes. =)

Woah havent update for a week now.Pure lazyness.

During the week,quite a few event took place.It was my ah neh darling,Genevive's 18th birthday!We went to the chalet and many others were there.Hope she enjoyed herself. :D

We also had BBQ at Maddy's house.To my disappointment,there wasnt much food.LOL.But the chicken wings were really tasty.A few of them stay over and we played games,drank alil'.But gradually alil' became more,so some became tipsy esp maddy.HA!Maddy,Weien and I look like some lobster.Kansie stayed up whole night,she loves watching lame videos.That loo kuku,ha.



Today finally met Soh,went for a job interview,related to cosmetics.So nervous,I even wrote my secondary school as primary as well.They laughed at me.Haha.After that we headed down to town to meet ping ping.We were looking for new year's clothes but didnt saw anything we like.Oh had jap cuisine again,twice within four days.That makes me happy!OH,and we saw 98.7 DJ SHAN WEE,so darn tall & cute.Enjoyed gonggong's company,those girls talk. :)

Gera,Maddy,ME

Anyway I stay over at Maddy's house for a total of like near to 10 days?!Haha,had so much fun.She miss me after I went home,but well I'm going over after she's back from Batam.Hahaha,it's like my house also. ;D

Oh and I almost got my naval pierced today,but decided to do it another day.Didnt wanna do it on impulse.If I were to pierce,I cant eat seafood for like a mth or so.SO torturing.Haha.But I'm sure to get it real soon.Those belly studs are simply too stunning & tempting.

Can a tainted love be painted beautiful once again?

Okay now it's been 5D4N.It's almost a week but it feels so short.I really enjoyed my stay at Maddy's house and she's a pretty good host.Haha.She wants me to move over,I'd love to but nah.I will disrupt her lifestyle cos she cant sleep with me ard,keep crappin' and laughing.

I'm having some problems with Daddy now,seriously I dont feel like going back Yishun house at all.He's just too intimidating.It's my fault I know,I donno how to make the situation better now.I tear alil' when I saw those msges.I do love him dearly but to him I am just like a failure/useless person. :(

Well Saturday wasnt really a fantastic day.The party @ Dxo sorta screwed up,imagine shortage of hundred tix.And us,sellers have to apologise to buyers even tho' it's not our fault at all.Stupid system,didnt organise properly.Grrrrr~

But well,luckily my friends didnt give me a hard time.Poor maddy and hayden.Nevertheless all of us get in via guestlist,the queue was freakin' long.Anyway saw some friends as well,kinda cool.And also some who saw me but I didnt see 'em.

The dancefloor was so damn packed.Total turn off man.We all sweat so much,eeeww~After that headed to 7-11 and slack with the wg group.I didnt went with the girls,so sad but will make it up soon.Hayden bluff me,end up didnt had supper.Anyway I'm so used to speaking with the accent now.Gee.

Ah neh's birthday's in 2 days time.Wooo~And also meeting gong gong during her off day,it's a blessing to know her.But I think gotta be careful of Gera,she might be having the idea of being les with me.LOL.Wkend with Adelia and Karen,ha like became a routine alr.
I L-O-V-E each and every single precious girlfriend. :)
Get well soon~

No regrets.

Stayover!

I'm staying over at Maddy's hse for 3D2N!

I behave as tho' it's OUR house.It's been really fun during my stay here.Cos I've got companion and we keep crappin' ard.This afternoon she was laughing her ass off,just becos I wore my undies the wrong side throughout the night.Haha!She's really noisy too,but so am I. :D
I feel like having a place of our own,filled with the girls,but it's tough I guess.

Anyway went to town today,met Hayden and the rest.Finally meet ah neh darling as well,her birthday's in a few days time. :)
I keep bumping into minmin also,still so sweet with her bf.
bB got boyfriend alr,that girl always lie abt remaining single.Lol.Hope this time she'll have a great relationship.Awww that reminds me that Valentine's day coming~

Oh and I met my first online girl friend,Geraldine.It's kinda cool,but yea glad that I made a new girl friend.We can click as well.Shall post our pic tmr,cos gonna meet at the party.

I had 3 freakin' FROGS for supper.Sooo satisfied. =D

It's gonna be a great day,cos gonna have fun with my dear girls.Party & piggin' out!
<)^(oo)^(>

Here i am blogging while maddy's sleeping like a pig. :D

Anyway Friday met the girls,Genn,Adelia & Karen.After walking around & slacking,we headed to Chomp Chomp for supper.Wat a pig-out session!We ordered so much seafood,almost all the variety of shells there.We had so much fun laughing as well.The meal was really satisfying.

After supper,we went to Cheers to buy tidbits & stuff then off to Adelia's house.We were fighting over her pyjamas.Haha,catfight!It feels like a slumber party,cos we were boozing & snacking.Just that our pjs aint that sexy. ;D
Took random & nonsensical shots as well,so fun~ Shall upload the slideshow next time.

Saturday was our girls night again and bB joined us for awhile.With them around,there's bound to be fun & laughter all the time.We went to town and shop alil' then headed to Vivocity to catch a midnight movie,"Night at the museum".It's a real hilarious show.Didnt had our fav 'bomb prata' though.

Sunday went back to yishun house,be Daddy's girl.Had a sumptuous lunch with him & my bro.But headed back to amk house after dinner.

Monday was Hayden's chalet,went there with Maddy.Finally got time to catch up with her.Ahhh but on the way there,missed seeing Nicky.It's like so near yet so far.Haha.Anyway reached there and it's like kinda pathetic cos only approximately 10 ppl there.

They started bbq-ing while we waited for food.SO much food was left,and lots of alcohol also.Hayden drank so much till he became a 'lobster',so damn red & even puked.Maddy and I left early in the morning cos nth to do.OH,Maddy's so sweet to get me this really beautiful photo album & nailart from Hong kong.I love it,cos it has all the princess in it.

Oh,I fell down on friday.I flew off from the top of the stairs but luckily I managed to grab the railing halfway.But it resulted to many bruises.I've like 4 freakin' blueblack on both leg and one is super H-U-G-E.I'm like Miss Blueblack.Always getting so many of it,such a klutz.

I've been hanging out with my girls almost the whole week,cant do w/o 'em.This sat gonna have fun with the fabulous clique again. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENEDICT! =D