Hohoho!I've been heading to town for too many times now.I shall curb my spendings this week,but first day of the week already went to have sushi with bB darling.I'm so happy that Suki Sushi has a branch in AMK as well,so convenient for me to satisfy my craving. I'm sucha sucker for Japanese cuisine,I'm having 'em like once a week.How I wish I can own a Japanese restaurant in the future.


Oh-so-yummy!

My darling girl!
Friday & Saturday went to town again.Lazy to elaborate.But friday had sushi again,lessy uh that PIG!

The awesome babes-Miko,Gera_lessy,Stacy & me! :)

Natalie & me.Coincidently we wore grey that day!

On Sunday met up the girls for dinner at KFC.It's been a really really long time since the 4 of us gather together.After awhile,Anita came over & joined us.It's been ages since I last saw her too.She's still as loud as ever.Haha!After which,we headed to the fountain and had our girls' talk.Our topics ranges from personal experiences to guys & even boobs etc.It was sucha girly night,I like.

The sweet girls-Maddy,Lim,Me,Ah Min & Anita. ♥
Oh well,I'm gonna do something to my hair real soon.I can't stand it,so..... !Esp my fringe,blame it that I've a darn short forehead.

Sometimes I really hate certain feelings that I'm experiencing.The feelings sucks real bad, sometimes I just have to hide it & keep it within myself.

Note to self: START DOING TUTORIAL & REVISE!Time to study yo! :D

It's been a pretty great week I guess.Nothing too bad happened.

2nd,Nov,Friday: It was PLUSH night again,this time round with more people.However my mood was somehow ruined by this fugly bitch.Anyway the girls are great company-Lessy,Laura & Stacy.



Lessy for life! ♥

Laura & me. :)

The babes-Tink,Yink,Denise,Geri & Me.



3rd,Nov,Monday:It's retail therapy time again.I bought 3 dresses & a pair of heels.I saw this really nice Guess? handbag,omg I'm so in love with it.Haha well that's girls for you.

7th,Nov,Wednesday:We had our oral comm ICA 1 and we were needed to prepare a 3-4 mins speech.Many of my classmates did pretty good.As for me,I think I need to improve more.But I'm glad that I'm able to project my voice now,unlike before.Still, I could feel the butterflies in my stomach when it's my turn.

Lai Hock the monkey & me.

At night it was Zouk.However I very much regretted going there because it was so god damn crowded.Phuture music was rather sucky as well.I dislike people who are there to find flings,kissing around and not dancing.Cant they freakin' go to a hotel or head back to their house,gosh.


Pardon my ugly left eye cause I had an infection.

Anyway glad that thursday is a public holiday,at last I get to rest.I had a delectable dinner with mummy & bro today. :)

How nice,it's the weekend again!

Hello dear blog,here I am again.(It's nov now,time really flies!)

I'm still wide awake now as my body's adrenaline is pumping real fast.There's nothing much happening or exciting that has happened within these few days.

Cassy really hates people who doesnt appreciate her,be it anything.I dont like it when it's not being reciprocated.I guess there's no need to put so much effort in those people who falls under this category.I hate sticky situations as well,it makes me at loss what to do or how to handle it.

How very surprising that I have the mood to study right now,cause usually I'm sucha lazy bum.Ha.But well I really have to put in great effort if I wanna pass all modules.

Anyway hope a close friend of mine will be fine soon.Though I'm not some great advisor in relationship problems.I just want to tell the person that 'Brace up,everytime you fall,you'll turn out stronger than you seemed'. Stay positive!

I guess after each time a person fails in a certain thing,subconsciously one will tend to lose faith.As for me,gradually I'm beginning to have less trust & faith in certain people.Things doesn't remains the same forever,it's always the people who changes.I'm not perfect either.

Afterall we have to get through the doldrums of life to find happiness for ourselves.
Happiness is the KEY to my LIFE. :)

Alright so like,I dont really dread going to school that much now.Haha.All because of the nice souls from my new classes.Especially Luoping,Yingying,Jorge,Danny and some others. :)
No skipping of lecture or anything now.Just a short update today.

• FOOD GALORE ALERT!Went to Sakae Sushi, Hong Kong Cafe,Crystal Jade,'Spagaddies' during a week.Omg,imagine how much calories there are.Delicacies like this makes my day.
• Caught 'Superbad',hilarious but quite a meaningless show.
• Meet up with friends & dear Lessy :]
• Town,town & town.

Peektures.







This is why our diet NEVER WORKS. :D


Happy belated birthday to GongGong.



She always copy me.We didnt plan what to wear,but end up we sure got something in common.That day she wore the same colour as me.HA!

bB & cC <3
I miss hangin' out with Maddy,Jasmine Soh/Lim.Please dont think that I have new friends or prefer to hang out with them rather than you girls.

Anyway glad that you're slowly letting go and you can have a new start.
I'm sure you'll find a girl who's worth your love.

The start of dreary school days.

It's only the beginning of a new semester & I'm already dreading to go to school.What a BAD start indeed.I keep lamenting about it cause I REALLY dislike my timetable.

My timetable only allows me to have lunch with my class MB on Monday only.That sucks.On top of that,I'm only seeing them for two modules.It really feels awful to be in a whole new environment with so many unfamiliar faces around.The thought of it just makes me feel uneasy.Worse still,I feel so awkward trying to fit in & stuff.Alright think positive,I might meet some really nice friends?Okay I'm just tryin' to console myself.

How I wish this sem could just zoom pass with a blink of the eyes.

I'm not feeling exactly complete/happy,more like forlorn.There's quite a few issue bothering me & I cant seem to get it off my mind.It just lingers at the back of my mind every now and then.I've got like a million stuff to blab about.But well I'll just keep it to myself,tho' that's so not me.

Suddenly it just dawns on me that I'm not worth anyone's love cause I dont even love or cherish myself.That's so random,whatever.I haven't been feeling good for a period of time,I mean my inner feelings.

Okay enough of all the emo stuff.On a happier note,I'm gonna cheer myself up alil' tmr.Needless to say,retail therapy~ Well at least that's the only solace that can help alleviate part of the gloominess.

It's hard to decipher me I guess.
Note to self: Never repeat the same mistake twice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BABY RAIN,(15oct).I hope you're doing fine now. :)
Guiltiness,remorsefulness.
I'm sorry for everythingAnd I dont seek for your forgiveness either.

Time for some updates now!

Thursday,4th Oct'07: Finally headed to Sentosa after so long,really miss those good ol' times when we used to go there often.We played some random games & camwhore alil'.Ohmygod,something really embarrassing happened.Girls,please keep it a secret!Haha! Rugby was the game which somehow excites us.They were pinning each other down & stuff.Fun!We're so going there again. :D


Winfield,YingweiKansie,ME,bB,Moomoo & Gonggong.(Sheng missing)
I strongly believe that women are from Venus & men are from Mars.Haha!

I love these girls! :)
bB,my darling girl.





After Sentosa was mahjong session,havent been playing mahjong recently.Oh and there was lots of Marshmellow with home-made Choc fondue.Yummy~

Friday & Saturday,5th,6th Oct'07:Gera lessy and I headed down to Plush with Moomoo,Sean & clique.I wonder why do they always change management.Momo still sounds better.Anyway lessy got tipsy on the first night,and I was alil' taken aback when she got emotional.My heart aches when I see her suffering in silence,cause the past had left such a big impact on her.Poor sweety,I'm always here for you yea.It wasnt really happening but yea at least the night wasnt boring.Oh and thank you Moomoo.Haha.
My dearest. <3

Alright I'm getting lazy with the programmes details now.

Anyway yes I didnt manage to pass the supp papers,only one module.Therefore I gotta retake 2 of 'em.Oh my god,that really sucks. It means I will be separated from MB for some modules. =(
Okay I can only blame myself,duh.School starts in a few days' time!Goodness,I need to spend these few precious remaining days of holidays before the oh-so-dreadful school life begins again.


I've been feeling rather temperamental these few days I guess.I get especially vulnerable at night,or should I say when I'm at home.Sometimes I'm lost in my train of thoughts,it's like I dont know what more to think or should I even be thinking so much.I feel that I dont understand nor can I fathom many,many things.

I guess I probably dont know what I'm actually looking/seeking for.Which is why I always think about stuff but yet cant derive to a conclusion.Oh well,life could get so complexing.

Wouldn't it be great if someone could just 'read' and understand you like a book?

No one holds the key to your happiness,it's you yourself who's able to conjure the greatest happiness in your life. :)
You're not totally forgotten.

Sat,29th Sept'07: Finally met up with Maddy & Lim,it's been so long since we went out together.Headed to town & did some shopping.Bought a sweater with lim,like couple.Cute.Haha.Gosh I spent quite a lot,but it did made my day better. :)

Bottomline: Retail therapy with my lovely girlfriends is LOVE!

On Monday,we had a short buddy outing.We had dinner at Amk hub's Ichiban Sushi.Their service was bad I should say,cause they took so damn long to serve an item.But they have a rather wide variety of sushi.Next buddy outing on the coming Monday,sushi buffet.G-R-E-A-T!

Oh and gera lessy got an awesome new hairstyle.Nice!I wanna do something to my hair too,sick of it.I hope I'll get to swim or go Sentosa tomorrow.The weather's killing me man.

I cant upload pics cause my cable's lost.How sickening.Pictures will be up soon!

Current mood:

After two days,time for recreational activities again!

Gahhh,hope I can at least pass the two remaining supp papers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NANA! :)

I wonder why human are born so sensitive, in some cases which others are over-sensitive.Many issues could arise because of this bad trait which I personally label it.

Indeed I'm really unhappy towards something because it has accumulated till I cannot stand it,but well I'm just gonna put it behind me.I really cant stand people who scolds a whole load of shit and come apologising after that.What's done cannot be undone and so what's said cannot be taken back.I'm not some bloody shithead for anyone to scold/insult.I'm human,a person filled with emotions & feelings.

I know when one is mad,they tend to just blabber whatever stuff.But for me,that reason is not valid enough.I guess different people have different level of emotional intelligence quotient (EQ).

By right,I should get really mad when I'm being hurled by vulgarities & insulted.But yea, I think blowing my top for that isn't worth it. As long as I'm clear against my conscience,I dont give a shit about how others think.Cause I'm living my own life,not anyone else's.And I'm no longer some naive little girl for people to toy with.

Lastly,I'm not a god damn fucking materialistic girl.I hate people to malign me.In my eyes,monetary issue is not of top priority.People who knows me well will understand.Too bad if anyone choose to judge me that way,it only means you dont really know me well enough after all.What a disappointment. And MONEY cant buy everything.

At times,I need to get an attitude check as well.Anyway I'm just glad that at least things are better now.

Sometimes I feel that nothing really matters at all,like there's no priorities in life.I've got nothing to look forward to in the future.I guess I should have a goal or something.

Oh well,I've done extremely badly for my first sem.I dont think anyone could have done that badly.I'm just not cut out for anything related to IT/Maths,but yea that's not a good excuse.I need to put in arduous effort to improve my grades.I'd hate to see Daddy disappointed again.

Boohoo,a boring week ahead.Mugging & more mugging.What the hell.Sighs,I really hope to pass the supp papers.Toodles~

On the 14th,we had sort of a lil' party thing.Overall,it was a great day. :)

• Gold class movie at Vivo."No reservations" was worth the money.Catherine Zeta Jones was awesome.A light-hearted movie for all.Nothing really fantastic tho',I guess 30 bucks wasnt worth it.The only good thing was the seat is comfy & there's blanket provided. Verdict: 3/5
  
  


• Hairstyling at 'Xpect Studio' at somerset area.I kinda like the hairstylists there,cause they provide rather good advices.Ohh I'm so gonna perm my hair when it grows even longer!Curls are lovely.And Geri got her Lionking hair.Heh!Verdict:3.5/5
  BEFORE

AFTER

• Dinner at Ritz Carlton Hotel.The dinner was splendid,especially the lobsters,seafood & not forgetting the yummy desserts! :D Their service was really good,needless to say cause it's a 6 star hotel.Verdict: 4.5/5

• After dinner,headed to Swissotel for a short break before clubbing.It was at 66th storey and the scenery was superb! Oh and the room was amazing.I love the bathtub most cause you can soak in it & also watch the tv positioned just at the front at the same time.Cool.
  

Verdict: 4.8/5

Time for party,and so we headed to the club.I saw like many familiar faces there.Alright shall party again soon.

The party at VD was boring.But glad that I had gera lessy's company.Anyway will update again.

I'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings recently.

Wonder what's got into me,perhaps I tend to think too much.I just wanna live a carefree life and be happy everyday.But life can't be sailing smoothly all the time.

I hate to have regrets,so even if I do regret I'd just put it behind me and not bother.But still,I regretted for some of the things I did.Sometimes it's not that I want,but it just happens like that.When you know you might be doing something wrong,either you go with it or leave suavely.

Is it selfishness or being too self-centered?That you acheive your own happiness regardless of other people's welfare at heart.I guess there are times when human tend to be selfish.Probably sometimes you're too carried away by the feeling that you forget about the consequences that it's gonna bring or what it'd be like in the future.

Alright no point pondering so much,just live the life you want but with no regrets.

I believe in Karma,just wondering when it will come to me.

All the above is just some random stuff,not pinpointing anything.I want a short vacation,a sweet escape from the complexities of the world.

"A smiling face doesn't always means a smiling heart." :) / :(

29th AUGUST 2007
A significant day,as it marks another ending to our story.

Before I start typing,tears are already welled up in my eyes and it wont stop streaming down my cheeks.

How many of us have actually experienced the sweetness of true love and yet the despondency from the break up.Well,I did.

Alright as you have all guessed,we broke up again already.I know it's quite out of the blue as we seem blissfully in love.Blame it on me,I'm the selfish/bad/heartless one.

I know this could be one of the biggest mistake that I'd ever make and I might even live with the greatest regret.As I could be letting go of 'the one' for me.But still,I believe in FATE.

Sometimes when things doesnt work out anymore,you have no choice at all.Yes yes,I know some of you might say that things can always be solved/improved etc.But are you even me?Do you even know how I feel or what I have gone through?

I'm not saying that he treats me badly and all,he did not.It's just that I can sense that it's different from before.All the little different things just makes the change unquestionably distinguishable.This,I cannot deceive myself.There's other factors as well but yea...

Finally when I muster the courage to say the hateful 'break up',at that instant I could feel my heart ache.You've no idea how much it hurts me to push you away as well.Inside my heart,it's aching so badly.But I cant be soft-hearted and let things drag on.If it drags on,it'll only brings more pain and misery.

All recollections of our memories worsen the pain but still all these lovely memories will be etched in my heart forever.No one would love me like you do,thank you for everything.You taught me all about love.

I feel really remorseful.Letting go of someone you love might be the hardest thing on earth.I'm sorry for everything.But I swear I'm not fooling you or even treating you like a toy.And also it's not for my goddamn freedom.

Whenever I read his blog,I'll go all soft and emotional.Sometimes I wish this is just an illusion,but this is reality.That's life,it could bring happiness/euphoria/joy/sorrows/pain/agony etc.Very often,we can conjure our own happiness but at the same time we could destroy it with our own hands as well.

Nevertheless I still wish you happiness,I do care for you.You told me,'I'll be there for you,this I swear to you." I'll be there for you when you need my help or anything as well.

Often we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

A love lost,with nothing left but fond memories.
And these memories shall stay.Irreplaceable <3

(A video which I created ages ago.)

When you're gone,the pieces of my heart are missing you.

Yooohooo~ I'm back again,finally found the time to update.

Anyway the family & class chalet was alright only,wasnt like so damn fun.But still great times spent with the people.

Oh my god,I'm tanned again!Argh! Hate it,it wasnt easy to become slightly fairer,and now all effort from staying out from the sun has come to naught.;(

Anyway my cousins and their family have gone back to Holland already,really sad cause their stay of duration is really short.Well,have to wait till probably 2 years later then I'll get to see them.

Finally I'm heading to Sentosa on friday,with gera lessy. But strictly, no suntanning for me!

I love the 3 of them. :D

I'll miss you two,JAMIE & JANE. <3

Thank god tomorrow's the last paper.And this spells something great, HOLIDAYS. =]

Anyway the other day celebrated Granny's birthday.Boy, it was a really satisfying meal except for the dessert.There's this 'Buddha jumps over the wall' dish,direct translation.Haha.

There's so many hidden 'treasure' inside,like abalone,humongous sea cucumber etc.But I love the lobster dish the most,totally yummy.

After that stay over at yiyi's house again,we played 'Risk',first time playing it & I kinda like it.Jane is the ultimate loser cause all of us at least won once.It's fun being with them,but they will be going back soon.How sad.

Oh ya,stat's paper was a total flop.I'm bound to fail that paper,argh I'm such a Math dummy.Glad that Marketing paper wasnt that difficult.Oh well,tomorrow's the last paper. :D

Anyway gonna mia from the internet world till next tuesday.I'll be having family chalet on 24-26 & class chalet on 26-28.Wildwild wet,BBQ etc= fun-time!

Somehow a certain vibe is lacking,I wonder why.

Pictures will be uploaded when I'm back.My blog's getting boring now.

OH MY GOD.

I'm so dead,tmr's POA exam & I'm so not prepared.I really detests anything to do with MATHS.I cant seem to get used to the format and stuff,so damn confusing.

ARGH,alright back to mugging now. =/

Wish me luck for tmr's paper. *Fingers crossed.

Busy,busy.Lazy,lazy. Haha.
Alright just a short post.It feels weird if I dont blog for very long.

Just a short summary for i-dont-know which day.

-Crab feast with holland aunty & cousins etc.
-Hair & makeup session for jessica.
-Outing and not forgetting sushi session with Maddy. :)
-Sushi treat,'Flashpoint','Alone' & Rush hour 3 with baby.<3
-Presentation
-Cousins' stayover.

Okay I'm lazy to elaborate more.Haha.

By Jessica.The back of it looks nicer.

Love the cousins loads.
MK 07/02
We'll miss her.

So,like finally first semester is coming to an end.That's pretty fast.Hell yea,I cant wait for the LONG holiday.10 more days to go. :D

Quarrels are inevitable but I hope after everything it'd brings us closer and not further apart.Loves*

Whooohoooo~

My aunty & cousins are finally back from Holland for a short vacation. =D