I wonder why human are born so sensitive, in some cases which others are over-sensitive.Many issues could arise because of this bad trait which I personally label it.

Indeed I'm really unhappy towards something because it has accumulated till I cannot stand it,but well I'm just gonna put it behind me.I really cant stand people who scolds a whole load of shit and come apologising after that.What's done cannot be undone and so what's said cannot be taken back.I'm not some bloody shithead for anyone to scold/insult.I'm human,a person filled with emotions & feelings.

I know when one is mad,they tend to just blabber whatever stuff.But for me,that reason is not valid enough.I guess different people have different level of emotional intelligence quotient (EQ).

By right,I should get really mad when I'm being hurled by vulgarities & insulted.But yea, I think blowing my top for that isn't worth it. As long as I'm clear against my conscience,I dont give a shit about how others think.Cause I'm living my own life,not anyone else's.And I'm no longer some naive little girl for people to toy with.

Lastly,I'm not a god damn fucking materialistic girl.I hate people to malign me.In my eyes,monetary issue is not of top priority.People who knows me well will understand.Too bad if anyone choose to judge me that way,it only means you dont really know me well enough after all.What a disappointment. And MONEY cant buy everything.

At times,I need to get an attitude check as well.Anyway I'm just glad that at least things are better now.

Sometimes I feel that nothing really matters at all,like there's no priorities in life.I've got nothing to look forward to in the future.I guess I should have a goal or something.

Oh well,I've done extremely badly for my first sem.I dont think anyone could have done that badly.I'm just not cut out for anything related to IT/Maths,but yea that's not a good excuse.I need to put in arduous effort to improve my grades.I'd hate to see Daddy disappointed again.

Boohoo,a boring week ahead.Mugging & more mugging.What the hell.Sighs,I really hope to pass the supp papers.Toodles~

On the 14th,we had sort of a lil' party thing.Overall,it was a great day. :)

• Gold class movie at Vivo."No reservations" was worth the money.Catherine Zeta Jones was awesome.A light-hearted movie for all.Nothing really fantastic tho',I guess 30 bucks wasnt worth it.The only good thing was the seat is comfy & there's blanket provided. Verdict: 3/5
  
  


• Hairstyling at 'Xpect Studio' at somerset area.I kinda like the hairstylists there,cause they provide rather good advices.Ohh I'm so gonna perm my hair when it grows even longer!Curls are lovely.And Geri got her Lionking hair.Heh!Verdict:3.5/5
  BEFORE

AFTER

• Dinner at Ritz Carlton Hotel.The dinner was splendid,especially the lobsters,seafood & not forgetting the yummy desserts! :D Their service was really good,needless to say cause it's a 6 star hotel.Verdict: 4.5/5

• After dinner,headed to Swissotel for a short break before clubbing.It was at 66th storey and the scenery was superb! Oh and the room was amazing.I love the bathtub most cause you can soak in it & also watch the tv positioned just at the front at the same time.Cool.
  

Verdict: 4.8/5

Time for party,and so we headed to the club.I saw like many familiar faces there.Alright shall party again soon.

The party at VD was boring.But glad that I had gera lessy's company.Anyway will update again.

I'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings recently.

Wonder what's got into me,perhaps I tend to think too much.I just wanna live a carefree life and be happy everyday.But life can't be sailing smoothly all the time.

I hate to have regrets,so even if I do regret I'd just put it behind me and not bother.But still,I regretted for some of the things I did.Sometimes it's not that I want,but it just happens like that.When you know you might be doing something wrong,either you go with it or leave suavely.

Is it selfishness or being too self-centered?That you acheive your own happiness regardless of other people's welfare at heart.I guess there are times when human tend to be selfish.Probably sometimes you're too carried away by the feeling that you forget about the consequences that it's gonna bring or what it'd be like in the future.

Alright no point pondering so much,just live the life you want but with no regrets.

I believe in Karma,just wondering when it will come to me.

All the above is just some random stuff,not pinpointing anything.I want a short vacation,a sweet escape from the complexities of the world.

"A smiling face doesn't always means a smiling heart." :) / :(

29th AUGUST 2007
A significant day,as it marks another ending to our story.

Before I start typing,tears are already welled up in my eyes and it wont stop streaming down my cheeks.

How many of us have actually experienced the sweetness of true love and yet the despondency from the break up.Well,I did.

Alright as you have all guessed,we broke up again already.I know it's quite out of the blue as we seem blissfully in love.Blame it on me,I'm the selfish/bad/heartless one.

I know this could be one of the biggest mistake that I'd ever make and I might even live with the greatest regret.As I could be letting go of 'the one' for me.But still,I believe in FATE.

Sometimes when things doesnt work out anymore,you have no choice at all.Yes yes,I know some of you might say that things can always be solved/improved etc.But are you even me?Do you even know how I feel or what I have gone through?

I'm not saying that he treats me badly and all,he did not.It's just that I can sense that it's different from before.All the little different things just makes the change unquestionably distinguishable.This,I cannot deceive myself.There's other factors as well but yea...

Finally when I muster the courage to say the hateful 'break up',at that instant I could feel my heart ache.You've no idea how much it hurts me to push you away as well.Inside my heart,it's aching so badly.But I cant be soft-hearted and let things drag on.If it drags on,it'll only brings more pain and misery.

All recollections of our memories worsen the pain but still all these lovely memories will be etched in my heart forever.No one would love me like you do,thank you for everything.You taught me all about love.

I feel really remorseful.Letting go of someone you love might be the hardest thing on earth.I'm sorry for everything.But I swear I'm not fooling you or even treating you like a toy.And also it's not for my goddamn freedom.

Whenever I read his blog,I'll go all soft and emotional.Sometimes I wish this is just an illusion,but this is reality.That's life,it could bring happiness/euphoria/joy/sorrows/pain/agony etc.Very often,we can conjure our own happiness but at the same time we could destroy it with our own hands as well.

Nevertheless I still wish you happiness,I do care for you.You told me,'I'll be there for you,this I swear to you." I'll be there for you when you need my help or anything as well.

Often we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

A love lost,with nothing left but fond memories.
And these memories shall stay.Irreplaceable <3

(A video which I created ages ago.)

When you're gone,the pieces of my heart are missing you.

Yooohooo~ I'm back again,finally found the time to update.

Anyway the family & class chalet was alright only,wasnt like so damn fun.But still great times spent with the people.

Oh my god,I'm tanned again!Argh! Hate it,it wasnt easy to become slightly fairer,and now all effort from staying out from the sun has come to naught.;(

Anyway my cousins and their family have gone back to Holland already,really sad cause their stay of duration is really short.Well,have to wait till probably 2 years later then I'll get to see them.

Finally I'm heading to Sentosa on friday,with gera lessy. But strictly, no suntanning for me!

I love the 3 of them. :D

I'll miss you two,JAMIE & JANE. <3

Thank god tomorrow's the last paper.And this spells something great, HOLIDAYS. =]

Anyway the other day celebrated Granny's birthday.Boy, it was a really satisfying meal except for the dessert.There's this 'Buddha jumps over the wall' dish,direct translation.Haha.

There's so many hidden 'treasure' inside,like abalone,humongous sea cucumber etc.But I love the lobster dish the most,totally yummy.

After that stay over at yiyi's house again,we played 'Risk',first time playing it & I kinda like it.Jane is the ultimate loser cause all of us at least won once.It's fun being with them,but they will be going back soon.How sad.

Oh ya,stat's paper was a total flop.I'm bound to fail that paper,argh I'm such a Math dummy.Glad that Marketing paper wasnt that difficult.Oh well,tomorrow's the last paper. :D

Anyway gonna mia from the internet world till next tuesday.I'll be having family chalet on 24-26 & class chalet on 26-28.Wildwild wet,BBQ etc= fun-time!

Somehow a certain vibe is lacking,I wonder why.

Pictures will be uploaded when I'm back.My blog's getting boring now.

OH MY GOD.

I'm so dead,tmr's POA exam & I'm so not prepared.I really detests anything to do with MATHS.I cant seem to get used to the format and stuff,so damn confusing.

ARGH,alright back to mugging now. =/

Wish me luck for tmr's paper. *Fingers crossed.

Busy,busy.Lazy,lazy. Haha.
Alright just a short post.It feels weird if I dont blog for very long.

Just a short summary for i-dont-know which day.

-Crab feast with holland aunty & cousins etc.
-Hair & makeup session for jessica.
-Outing and not forgetting sushi session with Maddy. :)
-Sushi treat,'Flashpoint','Alone' & Rush hour 3 with baby.<3
-Presentation
-Cousins' stayover.

Okay I'm lazy to elaborate more.Haha.

By Jessica.The back of it looks nicer.

Love the cousins loads.
MK 07/02
We'll miss her.

So,like finally first semester is coming to an end.That's pretty fast.Hell yea,I cant wait for the LONG holiday.10 more days to go. :D

Quarrels are inevitable but I hope after everything it'd brings us closer and not further apart.Loves*

Whooohoooo~

My aunty & cousins are finally back from Holland for a short vacation. =D

Sheesh didnt realised that I havent been updating my blog for like 2 weeks?Okay here I am,Maddy & others stop complaining.Haha!

Anyway I've been rather busy or perhaps lazy as well.School's so dreadful man,I hate Business Software the most.I'm bound to retake that module. :(
Well,there's like tons of projects too.One due after another,gosh.Whoever said school was fun uh?Bullshit.


Some random pictures and probably overdue ones.

The double 'J' who makes my life happier.
My all-time darling. Best guy buddy ever.*Misses.
Miss Tallie.[Hope you're fine. :) ]

Dearest Baby & I.

My all-time addiction cum loverboy <3

And so,I've watched 'Invisible Target' & 'Knocked Up' with baby.Both shows weren't that bad.Been spending quality time with baby,had a Q & A session the other day.I think I know him more than he knows me.HA!Anyway he had his first performance at Heeren but I was unable to go.Nevertheless kudos to him,I promise to go for the next performance.

Exams's like in two weeks time.OMG.I've so so much to revise,all due to my laziness.Alright shall mug hard and play hard after exams. :)

You said that I was all you need beside you.I feel the same way too,baby.

Woah seems like I've been on a hiatus for some time already.Back to the blogging world.Anyway for this period of time,many things happened,both good and bad;happy and sad.

Anyway I'm so stressed as well,for some aspect.The worse thing would be I'm so short of time,time is never enough for me.I've got so many things to do and all that and I cant fulfil everyone's needs as well.

The wonderful people. :)


I still got 3 freakin' projects on hand.God,I hate it. =/

All we need is a mixture of understanding,care,frankness,
trust and most of all, l-o-v-e.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :D
Hope he likes the sweet card and present.

Somewhere down there hurts alil' or more each time.
I'm just in a lousy mood.
I've so so much to say but somehow I cant express myself.
I think I wanna change to xanga or wordpress soon,so I can lock some of the entries that are more personal.
Or probably keep a secret diary like how I used to.

I think I was too naive to thought of the world as almost perfect.
Sometimes I just feel that I'm alone although there's many who will be there for me.
Nvm about all this,I guess I just spell unhappiness to you.
Yes tomorrow will always be better than yesterday,that's what I hope.

I wonder if I'm really unlucky or simply clumsy.

Guess what?I fell down AGAIN the day before.Two falls in a week,omg I feel so humpty dumpty.Alright that's so random. Anyway the wounds arent recovering fast,and I think there will be scars.Argh,how to heal it w/o leaving a scar?

Today had a feast again,it was to celebrate my dearest mummy's birthday.Gosh,butter crabs is l-o-v-e.

By the way yesterday, we had another round of monopoly championship again.This time the guys were the winner,haha!

Awww I missed seeing Edison on 'Initial D' just now.I love watching him in shows,so darn cute!

Yikes, school's starting tomorrow.I kinda dread going to school,or probably I just hate to wake up in the morning.

This post is so random,alright back to school mode.
Toodles~

So like my one week of break is wasted due to my injuries,no sentosa or whatsoever. :(

In fact I don't feel like going out cause it's such a hassle to walk.My knee's still hurting.But on a happier note,I'm glad that the lost flesh on my big toe is growing back.Haha.I just hope it won't leave another ugly scar on my knee.

Yesterday was such a sinful day,ate a lot of stuff which I shouldn't be eating.Yes,no doubt I'm gonna turn into a fatty bombom.

Anyway hope to enjoy the weekend before the short break ends.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO YINGWEI! :)


Sometimes love is very special.
You feel it so deep in your heart.
It's not a love you were seeking,
but a love where fate played a part.

You have such a warm and glorious feeling.
Whenever that person is near,
you know they'll never know,
that this is the way you feel.

Love is like a clinging vine,
it just keeps growing and growing.
But sometimes you begin to wonder,
just where this love is going.

I'll make sure our love will always stay,
locked up in my heart.
Because this is a very special love,
a love that will NEVER depart.
Je t'aime,amoureux.

Today was our class bbq,it was held at east coast park.

Awesome class,MK 07/02. :)
Like more than half of the class turned up,but too bad didnt take any pictures.Anyway I love the chicken wings & squid,yummy!

It was rather fun however the boo-boo part was I had a bad fall.I sustained quite a few injuries,but the worst was my knee,like the flesh could be seen.Eeeew,it hurts so bad.Seriously I think I'm jinxed with bicycles.Since young I've had countless falls whenever I ride,resulting to all the ugly scars.

I should have a phobia for it,but nah I'm a tough lady.HAHA.
But I'm fragile now,any contact with the wounds hurts real bad. :(

Sometimes I do reminisce the past.....

Today's dinner at No signboard seafood restaurant was superb.
The crabs tastes oh-so-heavenly!Besides they were really HUGE,totally satisfy our craving.
Gosh,the word 'FOOD' never seems to leave my mouth for once.HA!

Oh no,tmr there's a dinner for fathers' day celebration as well.My aim is to slim down,not freaking add on excess fats!I'm gonna be a fat chick,damn.

And monday is our class Bbq,man how to resist?!Will someone kindly please ask me along for gym/jogging session?I'd appreciate it lots,haha!

I simply hate projects,they are such a bother.Especially doing it during holidays.*Shrugs

Anyway yesterday after chilling out at Starbucks,we headed to Sebas's house.The four of us played Powerpuff girls version of 'Monopoly'.It was quite fun & Sebas was the first to withdraw from the game cause he became bankrupt,following by Baby.Yea we won,girls rules but Genn is the big winner! ;p

I cant wait for 'Song of The Sea',fondue, more board games session etc!


HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Dear Daddy,may u stay happy & healthy always.
Love you,like always. :)

Sometimes I think I enjoy cooping up at home alone.

It's the only time when the pace seems to slow down.Very often we get so caught up with life that we don't even have time to sit down and take a look at the changes in our life.

Today I realised many things changes.Sadly,things doesnt remain the same from the start till the end.

I'm gonna start with friendship.How many of us can actually maintain a good & close relationship with all the friends around us? It takes two hands to clap.If one party doesnt put in effort then it'd all come to naught.

As for best friends,when time keeps both apart, the sign of drifting apart will show.Seriously I dont like the feeling when I'm not as close with my best friends as before.

When it comes to love, it is everything but perfect.Quarrels are inevitable.Problems arises after one and another and no way it wont surface again.I,for one believe that love is more than making choices and sacrificing.

I know everyone will have their own mindset,thus we cant blame anyone if there's a argument when it comes to their own concept.Each individual will remain their stand and refuse to budge,therefore the conflicts are never-ending.

Anyway I've learnt the art of tolerance.As long as it's worth it then it's alright.I'm a horrible & self-centered girlfriend.I guess even a handbook of 'How to be a good girlfriend' wont help in any way too.He is in misery & each time I'm only adding on to it and not reducing.Bad Cassy,wont you be good for once?

Sometimes you have to give up some things in order to keep something more precious by your side.

My heart just felt a plunge,my strong clairvoyance is sending signals.
Things are beyond my control.
A thousand apologies for hurting you,baby.
Maybe I'm really not worth your love.

ps:Just some random thoughts,I still love each and everyone. :)

Finally it's the 2 weeks holiday now.G-r-e-a-t!

Aww but then it's such a short break,1 month would be just nice.Hoho.
Alright therefore I should make full use of this short holiday.

• Sentosa outing.
• K-ing session.
• Work out at gym.*
• SHOPPING SPREES
• Lastly,meet up with friends whom I have not seen for donkey years.

Anyway 'School's out' @ DXO.It was an uniform party.Only sold tix and left rather early.

My dear lessy.

Parties with themes are cool,I like. :)

Oh yay tmr would be the last test,POA.It's like the worst test,no wait but I think it couldnt sucks more than the business application one.Stupid IT stuff,I'm bound to flunk that.So pathetic,cant even do half of it ,merely a quarter.Damn,I'm such a dummy at IT stuff.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for poa as well,cos I'm not clear of the concept.But still thanks to Pearleen who taught me today.Think of ICAs kinda dampen my mood but the thought of two weeks break actually overtook it and made me slightly happier.

Till now,I still cant forget the scene at the crematorium.It's simply heart-wrenching to see a family grieving over a member's death.Therefore there's this cliche saying,'Cherish what you have before it's gone or else you'd regret'.Let's just cherish the people around us cos u wont know when they'll be gone.Life's really unpredictable.

Anyway it's been two months with baby. Hope we'll stay blissful. :)

Byebye ICAs,hello holiday ! =D
(Happy belated birthday to dear Chienyu & Jason seah too!)