Here I am again~

Anyway got back some result.As usual I flunk my phy.
But but but there's improvement in my Maths,although i fail by abit.I know i can do it if i continue to work hard :)
I'm sooooooo HAPPY !

Anyway good luck to all those having N level.Esp Karen & Serene(pizzahut girl).U go girls!

Glad that I can leave s'pore as well,now I think can stay even longer also good.Sometimes I just hate it here.

TATA.Bon voyage to myself ~

Man,back to school again~ Bored,bored,bored.

Anyway got back some result,got improvement,not bad.Ha.Anyway today our school held a talk,just to educate us about sex or rather premaritial sex.Lol,kinda funny la.The video and stuff also nth much .

I'll be going to Thailand from thurs till mon.Initially Daddy & friend wanted to go Shanghai but they dun feel like going urban city kind.-_- But his friend last min cannot make it so me, being the filial one decided to accompany him although I'm quite reluctant to.

Seriously,I dislike going to Thailand cos of that snatch and run incident,stupid bloody thieves.So scary la,still left me traumatised.But this time round more fear,i hope there's no BOMBING!Maddy's friend's friend hand kena some explosion thing,so horrifying.Go there can get outta s'pore for awhile also not bad+can skip 2 days of school+shopping.

THINGS TO GET

• Maddy's top/accessories
• Kansie's bikini
• Winfield's Issey Miyake perfume
• Tidbits for goodnite x)
• Soonwee's tee
• Minmin's nails/nail polish
• Xue Qi's acrylic nails
• Souvenirs for jas lim,soh,sch clique
• Pressie for mummy

Okay i think i might miss out some.See how.But surely will buy stuff for some.LOL.Let's see who's lucky.

Maddy's super sweet & nice,she wanted to send and fetch me from airport.But I dont want,like troublesome.Love her to bits..

I think Daddy ROCKS,cos he still allow me to go even if it's the exam period now.Alrite pray for me peeps. =D

I'm soooo gonna miss some of 'em,esp maddy & nana.Be back on 2nd Oct.

Till then,miss me too ! (chuckles)

I'm real bored at home,so more entries.HA!

Sunday went to sentosa with Kansie,Soonwee & Teddy.Although there's only four of us but nevertheless we had fun.However no pics,lazy to take.

They wanted to suntan but not me,cos I wanna be fair.Sounds weird eh,cos I dont even rmb myself being fair before. ;D
I think if i really wanna be fair,I hafta stay out from the sun and buy tons of whitening products.*Shrugs. Forget it i guess,seems impossible.

We go there like having picnic,bought lots of sushi.After eating we went to play,all the games,got Soonwee sure lose.LOL! He's the ultimate loser.Played soccer as well,being a klutz I had a fall again.Haha,Kansie and I were so rough,keep kicking onto each other's leg.

They went to burried Soonwee as well,cos he's so petite.Quite funny.Next time gotta organise properly,more ppl=more fun.

Gosh,I realised I'm such a prodigal.Anyway I cant wait to shop.That clutch bag,oh-so-cute guess handbag,dior makeup,clothes,shoes,perfume etc.Never-ending stuff to buy.

I'm spending way too much on cabfare.Besides the more I take cab,the more I detests buses,trains are like better.Darn,have to curb my spendings.
( If I were to take lesser cabs,I would have been a lil' rich girl with ten over grands in my bank. :D)

Sometimes I really wonder why would besties do stuff which hurts/harm each other.I've been thru it and it really feels like ur heart's being shattered into million pieces.Although the greatest liberation is forgiveness,but i doubt ppl will change,just like how a leopard nvr changes its spots.

I guess the best confidante would be oneself.It's not wise to trust anyone totally.It keeps me pondering,whatever happened to sisterhood ?

I hope things will go well for Maddy on 29th.No matter what,I'll stand by you baby.I miss ur crappin' already,meet up meet up!And scold me 'kp' again ,u watch out!HA!

I'm totally drunk with joy and happiness when I'm with you,no one is able to make me feel the same way as u do.The times we share might be too short but it's the quality that counts.

No verbal/physical abuse pls.Lmao!

I pretty much enjoyed my wkend,finally can let my hair down and hang out with friends.

The highlight of my wkend would be going to Sakura international buffet restaurant.There's a few outlet,but i think the one near cine would be better.It seems like every week we head to different places for good food.Lol,no wonder we keep gaining weight.

SATURDAY

The food hunters :D

At first I was thinking,might as well shop rather than eat.However when we got there,I didnt regret at all,although that clutch bag I saw was really nice.There's simply too much delicacies.But main highlight which were the pics of food is still with winfield, will upload soon.

Let me name some..My fav,Salmon Sashimi,western cuisine(lamb chop,steak,chic chop),fresh seafood;oysters,mussels,prawns!Many diff kinda sushi,well-seasoned soup,drunkard prawns,duck,herbal chic.Pasta,salads & not forgetting savoury,pretty lil' desserts.

The delicacies

Goodnite and his chawa-mushi.(think he nvr eat b4,so happy)


Kansie & the yummy mochi


Another sashimi lover like me.


I'm loving it,sashimi rocks man.


Want a piece? No way,I want it all to myself. =p


Everyone likes the dory fish.


The drunkard prawns taste so divine.


Desserts which are so heavenly.

We had a delectable dinner.It feels as though I had eaten an elephant! So what's next,guys ?Haha.This is why my slimming plan doesnt work. =D


There's still a kid in everyone.

Now,ppl reminisce your childhood. :)

Today's the 100th post !

Anyway it's suppose to be a G-R-E-A-T day cos it's also the last day of prelim.However from the start of the day,the idiotic cab driver ruined it.He's the worst driver I've ever met.

He's sooooo clever la,turn one big round and like went back to the same place where i board the cab.(-____-)"
I was like,"Eh uncle,i said ang mo kio st 61,not yishun st 61."
He just smiled sheepishly and said"Oh i forgot/heard wrong."

But the thing is doesnt he even have brains or common sense.If wanna go back to the same place i still take cab for wat,might as well walk.HOW DUMB IS THAT ?
Almost died from exasperation.I really wonder if he's senile or what.

As if that wasnt enough,I just put up with it.But he caused me to be LATE!!! Damn sucks I tell u,supposingly I can be on time,thanks to his inattentiveness.The worst is here.

I asked nicely:"Uncle,later can you help me explain to teacher that u went the wrong way that's why I was late cos I dont wanna do detention."

Guess what kinda reaction he gave?

HE: Gave a lil' LAUGHTER (smiling happily)

I see already feel like swearing SCREAMING at him.Bloody ass! Still got the cheek to laugh,didnt even apologise lo.I was hopping mad,gonna lash it out any moment.But I control myself,just becos he's a old man alrite.Stupid driver still dare to charge me freaking 10 bucks.Make him eat then he know.Lol.

I hate stupid/dumb/brainless/witless/moronic/numskulled cab drivers.Screw'em!

Whatever,shant let this unhappy incident affect my happy mood.Darn,I'm not unable to bake a cake,cos maddy's hse too messy,but still I got my own way.Haha.I'm soooo gonna enjoy the next few days.

I find it unreasonable when ppl who asks me out but I cant make it and they give me some shitty reply/attitude.I'll try to make time for friends okay.So be understanding,not as if I wont meet u forever.When i keep quiet I'm just trying hard not to show attitude,if I dont treat anyone as friends,I wont give a damn or simply ignore.

Seriously,sometimes i detests certain guys.Dont be over-sensitive,might not be referring to you.

I just wanna be happy and have fun,cos the exam blues are over. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA ! ;)

I've got lots to say today.Haha.Anyway after sch went to had lunch at kfc,saw Nish & friends.Nish & jiayu waved+smiled at me,i love friendly souls. =D

We couldnt study much cos the place was so noisy la,filled with irritating students.Duh~Hence we roamed around,I got the urge to buy stuff.But I needa control,trying hard to save up which i hardly/never do.End up I went to a fortune teller,weird eh.LOL.

Surprisingly he actually remembers me.Gee cos I went before,which is like ages ago.The first thing he said STUNNED me,almost instantly I was really stupefied.He said my luck isnt in its best,but what's shocking was he mentioned that I could bump into 'those things'.I was like OMG!tell me that isnt true..Freakingly scary.But yea after that didnt wanna think/care too much abt it.

He said family got not much problem.That's a good piece of news to me. As for social/love life he said there are many to choose from,so no hurry.But the bad thing is once I commit,I'll fall deep deep in.Haha,kinda funny.He said I wont have control over my emotions and I'll hold on or smth.True true.

He remarked that health and studies are more important.He said gotta take note of my diet and bla bla.Haha,meaning i fat la.Nah not so bad la he.Studies shouldnt be a problem,but cannot be lazy,otherwise should be rather smooth.I like this the best. :)

Oh not forgetting that he mentioned I gotta control my temper,so accurate man.But I'm trying hard la,dont expect too much.I'm short-tempered however when it comes to the real thing.I'm slow to it,but once provoked.Roars~U'll be sooooo afraid.Heh,ppl dont believe,one day must show 'em.

I'm not really the superstitious kind.But such things are fun & interesting.I might wanna go to some other fortune teller again.HA!

Maddy's real mad over her guy,I soooo can understand.Lol.Sometimes just gotta give & take or tolerate.No choice,else wont do both parties any good.Cheer up,I hate my girls being vexed or frustrated over guys.Stay happy my babes!

*A BIG thank you to Winfield.Tea tree oil from the body shop works wonder i guess.He's my pimple saviour. ;D Pimples? No fear.LOL,jk la not some miracle oil also.

YAY ! I had my maths paper 2 today,and guess wat?I can do more sums.Woah that's amazing for me.Haha i dun care if i pass,as long as i improve.AHA, I'm not hopeless after all.

Oh ya,i got my debit card alr.Soooo much nicer than the old one. :)

These kinda issue bothers me,till now i cant stand it anymore.And i super hate it.Really.For one,I hate to explain or talk them out of it and all,the worst is no point explaining or whatever when the party doesnt hear any of it and still insists on his own thinking.That sucks.

I seriously dont understand how men mind works.Majority of them always tend to leave after the girl reject them or something.Is things so bad that cant even be friends?I'm not them so i donno how it feels so cant make a judgement as well.I'm just expressing how I feel,so dont come and say I dun understand and stuff.

In retrospect,many come and go,till when will it stop or take a change.They think of themselves,and what about me.Am I emotionless or what.As though I wont feel anything when we were once buddies or friends.I value friendship,so I'd be upset as well.For some i deem them as losers,I dun care.They just cannot handle it the right way,think wat? By disappearing,it's of use.Have it ur own way then.

I'm not pinpointing anyone,so dun assume u're one of them.I just cannot stand some guys.After rejection,stop contacting and stuff.In the first place,might as well dont be friends or what.End up,worsen the situation only.I'll be glad if they can stay by my side,share our woes, fun & laughters together.I'm more of in dismal rather than feeling livid.

-The love u lost might turn out into something great,and for once u missed.U'll nvr possess it again.I strongly believe friendship lasts longer than relationship.

Sadly,we cant change a person's decison or mindset.No matter how hard we try to *brainwash them.I just hope such a cycle would stop some day.Nevertheless hope they can find their happiness.

Anyway someone hates me,for lying ?WTH. Frankly i cant be bothered to explain or whatever.It isnt my fault.I said I'll try to forget him but did I say we wont get back,like who knows what will happen.So annoyed,but yea it's up to 'em.It's not what u think.Blame me,hate me or anything.I've had enough of all this.I dont owe anyone anything.Dont like whatever,choose what u wanna do.I'm gonna be numb from all this.

Each time someone leaves,I do feel the pang of hopelessness+desolation.

Arrrgghh~ FODA!

PS:I'm just expressing my unhappiness.It's my freedom of speech,mind you.My life,my decision.

The weather's been dreadful.One min it would rain and the next it'll be scorching hot.The hot spells are simply unbearable.

Finally,two more papers to go.Im deprived of sleep,i outta get more rest.Ahhhh the huge monstrous pimple on my nose is not gone yet,instead more are appearing.Damn! I guess no other than the whole body image issue creates more turmoil inside the hearts and minds of women.Women will always be women.We are a whiny lot as well. :D

With one more try,love can still bloom between us.

I think the huge pimple that is threatening to pop out from like the middle of my nose is due to stress.Study too much,lol .Didnt wanna take a pic of it so here it is,too bored la.


Ugly drawing of mine

Anyway after fri,I can finally enjoy for ahwile.Sentosa & shopping here i come~Oh yea we're gonna have a feast again,this time jap cuisine,my fave!

Today after exam,went to amk library.Read up a few books,rather interesting and i borrowed this girls guide book to surviving tough times.I wanna get 'why men lie & women cry' by Allan & Barbara Pease.They are terrific authors i should say,they can depict and describe human being's behaviour and stuff very well.It's a good book if you wanna understand the opposite sex better.

Things are looking better now.Dont u people agree that one of the nicest feelings,is to be with someone u like and vice-versa.But dont u sometimes wish the relationship between you two could be a little more natural,a little less fixed in its rules about who has to do and say what,a little less complex? Simplicity is the best :)

Yesterday the four of us went out again,supposingly going for steamboat dinner.But yea thanks to me,by the time we meet it's alr quite late.Hence we decided to head to elsewhere cos all of us were lazy to cook.

We went to city link mall and eventually saw New york New york,it has nice ambience and also the food looks appetizing.We walked past a table and saw a gigantic burger,no kiddin.I bet u cant finish it off urself.We're going back again to try it next time.Ha.

We ordered pasta.And boy,it sure tastes good.Love it!




Mine,mine!

Kansie's food.

Goodnite's.Darn his one taste better.

After having the pasta,we were too full to have any desserts.Sucha pity.Cos the desserts there are like so irresistibly tempting.Nvm,we'll be going there again.


Fondue nvr fails to melt me ;)

So,foodie who loves western cuisine,u should try it out.It's located at citylink mall,quite near TCC.IT's like a must-go okay.Lol

Afterwards went back,and we saw this cute lil stray cat.I went to play with it,feel like bringing home la.


The cute cat and urs truly.


SUPER DUPER CUTE!

Ahhhh so darn cute.I wanna own a cat,I know i've been saying this for like 87436584362 times.But cant help it la,i've been yearning for it.Someone,bring me a cat pls!HA.

This week is going to be a tough week,so many papers which im weak in.After this week gotta enjoy abit.

It just sucks la,as if it doesnt hurt.I donno how to make situation better,only worsen.Explaination doesnt help.I donno how to communicate for now. Things just cant seem to work out.
It seems to be diminishing.* Heavyhearted

I'm so gonna flunk my maths paper.Bloody hell,so difficult.I tot maybe can pass then can get reward like shopping.Damn!To hell with maths !~

I feel drained out,both physically and mentally.Exams are stressing and irritating.I wanna have my long beauty sleep.Ahhh,lady red visited too.It's just a sucky week+no fun.

Anyway i've had enough of my idiotic bro,his bloody attitude & the stuff he says really pisses me off.Wth la,at his age still wanna complain my daddy's biased.Shit it okay.Just shut the hell up cos i have no wish to talk to him also.Ppl talk nicely also reply like f. @%#$#&%!

Take for instance ytd,suddenly say wat i dun wanna study,fail o's better,argghhh!None of his business la,talk so much.As if i really didnt study.I think if I dun stay here we wouldnt be on such bad terms,cos he wont feel jealous.Duh~Like it's my fault.Living in yishun just sucks la.Amk better.

People also assume that brothers dotes on sisters alot.Lemme tell u,that's freaking BULLSHIT.

Yesterday during dinner I saw my beloved fren,frogs again.Haha,it's a delicacy alrite.Simply love it.Alrite dear frog,i shall have u soon. XD

Sudden thought: If the story'The frog who turns into a prince' really exists,i guess before mine turns into one I'd have gobble him up.LOL. crap.

Oh great,finally met up with lim,been missing her.But too bad maddy didnt come,that pig keep sleeping.Ha.

Anyway not gonna talk abt exam,it's simply boring la.Well talked to minmin,she told me some stuff.I think kinda wasted la.But yea made me realised that there's actually more to it,girls do think alot and also try to hide it by appearing happy in another way.So torturing.

Well whatever it is,i know my girls will stand by me and so will I.I just hope they can be happy and not always cry or feel upset.Girls just wanna have fun!Gossiping is also our habit.How nice to have a planet with all girls only.U girls rock my world! :D

PS: Anyone knows how to bake a yummy cake ?Teach me,wont u ? *Pleads

I went to the gym ytd.I ran for at least 2 km okay. =D It's kinda nice when u sweat like a pig.I seriously need to slim down,now's like the heaviest i ever got,sooooo upset.I wanna buy the tummyflat product thingy.HA.

Pics ytd after gym.

Retards,but not me.HA!



Tongue out =P

Trying to act as if got muscle.

Today chi paper wasnt that easy,paper 2 passages like so chim,nevertheless can pass la.Confident,ha.

My dear maddy's feeling all miserable & upset.Hate to see her in such plight cos it's always like that.How funny & strange love is,when both parties still like each other but not together.Sometimes I feel that w/o love u might not feel so unhappy after all.But love's like essential.Contradicting though.

For this era,there's definitely no long lasting love.U can happily fantasize about the future,those happy times together;living under the same roof,romantic dinners & walks,cosy moments on the couch.STOP,u're just building castle in the air,it wont happen or rather it will but end eventually.So sad but true.

I'm more of the fantasy/fairytale kinda girl,however I know i'm just living in a fool's paradise.But fond illusions are so magical,no harm imagining.Seriously I feel like getting married NOW,but i doubt i will ever.I'm being paradoxical again~

In short,love is full of complexities.Many are blinded by it,including me i guess.Haha.

I wanna go sing,sing,sing!!Anyone ? =D

Indulging on my salmon cheese-sticks & pizza now.Yummy!Anything cheesy,love it.

You may be out of my sight but never out of my mind.Misses.

Prelim has started.Today english paper was a disaster,think i screwed it.No more A1 this time i guess.haha.I was damn tired la,compo not of much content,low standard la.Compre worse still,i keep falling aslp.One teacher even came to wake me up . >.<

After school went to pizzahut with kansie and winfield,crap alot abt crazy stuff.Saw serene and her fren,bear too.Such a coincidence,that pizzahut girl,everytime go there see her one.lol.Anyway didnt finish the lasagne,not much appetite.

Hmm after last night,i really know wat i want,cos i sort of cant do w/o him but to change my lifestyle too much is like alil absurd.Cant complain much too,but i donno how then his mindset would change alil flexible.But it's hard after all those stuff which happened.I hate things to appear so simple but yet so complex.

I bought new eyelashes again.Weee,im happy. I wanna buy new mascara too,many things on my shopping list.Spendthrift la,cant help it. :D

I guess im off to the gym with school clique or just laze ard at home.

Mixed feelings,seems like there's a load,cant get it off my chest.Darn.

How time flies.It's the last day of my one week holiday.It feels as though there's like a magnet stuck onto me,constantly repelling from the same pole,which is the school.But well,am I glad that there's only a few weeks left.

Summary of my precious one week holiday:Revise,revise,revise.Sleep & sleep+SICK.NO shopping,Sentosa or whatsoever.I think it's the most boring holiday ever.Wth. Positive outlook: Not much of frivolous spending.

However I didnt get to revise all of the subjects,mostly just Maths.I've got so much to revise.Think next two weeks gonna be mugging all the way.I'm leading such a boring life.Darn.Nvm,just endure first.

Nevertheless I think fri was the best day.LOL.No more emptiness feeling i guess.Simply love 'moments doux'. I think it's fine to chase this fantasy,which is of great significance to me.Just see how things go.3,2,1 game rocks.HA!

I wanna meet up with them asap.Seems like it's been donkey's years since i last catch up with them.

Current mood:

I woke up at 7.30.Kinda amazing.I wouldnt get up so early.But couldnt stand it la,keep shivering,feel as though im dying.I woke Daddy up too,to make me warm milk.He brought me to the doc,waited for so long,sickening.I had high fever,feel as though my arms and limbs cant move also,totally weak.

I had a JAB on my BUTT,i think it feels good.HAHA! As in after that i feel much better,as though i recover already.I wanna go out so badly,staying at home makes me feel even more sick.Duh~

Anyway had a nice chat with Daddy,I dun think i hate him at all after all.It's just the constant nagging which irks me greatly.He might wanna go Holland to look for my aunty,i wanna go too!

I hope im able to go sentosa tmr. Im so stubborn,sick still wanna go play.Ha,hope i dun faint.

I'm in love with the song 'Doing too much' by Paula Deanda ft babybash. Stacie orrico's 'I'm not missing you' is not bad too. :)

Anyone wants a jab?HA!

For an unwell person,i ought to be in bed now.However i cant get to sleep and i dun wish to sleep.I've been sleeping the whole day throughout.What a waste of day.I was suppose to revise,dammit.

The splitting headache is killing me,think running a fever as well.Man,i hate it.I feel totally weak,no appetite at all also.Only had a small bowl of soup.Wonder how i can stand it.HA!Oh dizzy spells wont u get away~

I'm feeling all frustrated and grouchy.I freaking hate headaches.I plan to go sentosa on sat but now probably have to be cancelled.I dun even feel like talking,it just suck so bad.

Daddy's taking a sabbatical from work now,however he still feels grumpy even though he aint working.He even told me he feels like going somewhere to hole up for a period of time.Even adults are sick of the society and wants to escape from reality.

Sometimes i do reflect on myself,I donno what's the problem with me also.Always do things which i regret,i donno why the hell i did it in the first place too.Perhaps emotions rule over my head,just a moment of folly.But it is not a good excuse too.

Many a times,we try our best to do what we can.However there's also a voice calling from within that makes u think twice again.For fear of rejection,disappointment,failures etc. Nobody wants to make a wrong decision and regret later.

Sometimes i wish that i could sleep on and never to wake up again.

I miss my girls. ♥

I'm a bad kid today,skipped extra lessons.Haha.Such a bother la,hafta get up early in the morning.Blah~

Anyway finally met up with shawn,for dinner.Else i think he'd get real mad with me,always postpone.I know i suck for this.But i just donno how to organise time and stuff.

Hmm I realised that often we donno how much a person is suffering,becos of a person or anything.It must have hurt alot,and to suffer in silence,worse still.I really dont wish to hurt anyone.

I miss going to the beach,haha.I might be going jogging tmr with Daddy.LOL.But i hate to get up early in the morning.

Random blabbers:I think I'm improving,no cabs everyday now.Keep it up.HA.But i'm still a spendthrift,dont intend to buy anything but still insists on buying smth,else i would feel uneasy.(-_-)

I change another new blogskin,but it's so pinkish.Still on the search for one which i like.Anyway gotta thank karine for helping me cos i aint familiar with all da code thingy.Some entries are still screwed up,freaking fonts,so many problems.

The 'Krunk' party at sentosa wasnt that fun after all.This hol im gonna spend more time on revising than having fun.

This period of time is rather crucial,gotta think things thru and know what i want.I dont wanna make empty promises or whatsoever.Even if im doing too much,i know it's worth it.

My blog's so screwed up.I wanted to find a new blogskin,but many cant really work.Gotta edit and all that.Troublesome.

Nvm i'm just gonna leave it first,till then no tag board.LOL.