I've yet to get my haircut.Wth,cos been staying over at Maddy's place and we tend to sleep in the morning so always wake up late.And by the time,all the salons were closed.

But well,nvm cos I've decided to perm my hair.Yes,PERM. :)
Maddy perm her hair alr,and I think it looks nice.At least something new rather than the usual straight hair.If I perm my hair as well,that makes us the curly-wurly clan.HA!Maddy,Soh + ME.Cool,first time we got curls at the same time.

Woah, few days of incessant mahjong.I'm beginning to get better at it.But still I dun really enjoy playing it,just for leisure.

I wonder where my expenses went to,this mth is the worst.Soon gonna be abt 1k.Gosh.Anyway gonna meet my dearest gonggong gera tmr.Ahhh I miss the other girls loads~

The horrible meanie is gonna change her sickening attitude. I shall not be so tyrannical.HA!

I cant wait to perm my hair.Those lovely curls. =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINMIN SWEETIE & dear buddy,WINFIELD! :)

Tmr will be going to Kimage to have my new haircut,Maddy wants to perm her hair too.I cant wait to see her with curls.If it's nice I might wanna perm too.Yay!We're gonna shop and eat to our hearts' content,that's therapy for us.

I wanna pierce my naval alr,but I gotta abstain from seafood for like a mth or so.Such a torture,being deprived of my fav food.I still cant bear to stay away from abalone and stuff yet.Haha!

I've severe moodswing but well I always look happy. :)

I think only a silly dodo like me would stay up this late to blog just becos I'm feeling too bloated from all those prata.How I regret consuming it,adds on more unwanted carbo to my already BIG tummy.

Anyway as usual,been idling and chilling with the 'slacking' clique.Went Dxo on 19th,had pretty much fun with them.Ahh,and I won 30+ from gambling,not too bad.HA!Have been spending money like water as well,bad bad.But nvm,I enjoy the happiness from it. :D

I've a whole load of stuff that I wanna express but well it's still hard to put it into words as it cant exactly depicts how I really feel.

I've yet to move on after the last relationship.It could be due to I put in a lot of effort and heart into it.Yes,we've already broken up but somehow it's just really hard to let go of a romance which was once beautiful etc ...I don't know how to heal or move on and not expect my future relationships to be like the one I had.

But yet somehow something's stopping me from reconciling as well,I hate to be in this predicament.Neither this or that,then wat ?I'm at loss wat to do.

Do I move back or on?
Under such a situation,it's wise to look at the pros & cons of a possible relationship.There's many factors to consider as well.Like wat were the reasons for breaking up and if we did broke up over them once, wat makes me think they won't be a problem again in the future.

I've got to be honest with myself,is this a lonely period for me so I want him back?Totally no,cos I've frens to accompany me.Could it be Im too used to him,I guess so.But the girls said it's like that,hafta slowly get used to w/o him.I think I love him too much thus I cant come to a decision.That period of time was really heart-wrenching and excruciating and I tried damn hard to get over the tough phase.When all my hopes and faith was gone,u just came back again.It aint that easy to make it complete once again.

U wont understand wat I went through.U thought I didnt wanna give u a chance,but if I could I'd agree readily like how I used to.I wouldnt give it a second thought cos nvr thought that we'd have the chance to reconcile.But I just didnt want history to repeat itself nor do I want to get hurt so badly again.Seriously just a short period of time of waiting and all that doesnt seems like doing too much to me.I dun wanna make any comparison as well.

Sometimes one doesnt think back and reflects on oneself's behaviour and all that.Then when they actually undergo it,only then they realised how it feels.It's only till one experience it then understands the agony of it.By then the timing and all that is already wrong,that's when regrets starts to surface.

I cant deny those old feelings deep down inside as well as those wonderful memories.Those days were the best times of my love life.If I really let go,I could be letting go of the right one for me.And I might never find a love so intense ever again.

I dun wanna invest any more useless time,effort and all that for something that isnt going to go anywhere.On the other hand,if the problems can be resolved and we could start with a clean state.I wouldnt mind trying again.But somehow after so many tries,things doesnt change.So I've my doubts and this niggling fear abt it.


Silly insecurites are clouding my judgement.
Hopes of having him as a precious part of my life.
To grow from experience w/o feeling bitter,
and walk away as a lady a little more dignified?
Or stay and mend the broken love once again,
and indulge in a beautiful love that I yearn for?
Letting go or patching up is the beginning of new transition in my life.


Most importantly where's my enthusiasm of being in love.
By a certain time,I'll have the answer and I'll make sure it's the right decision.
Those fond memories are still vivid,but wat will fate brings us?

Back from Maddy's chalet.it was ratehr fun but then alcohol ruined it.HA.

Jasmine was alil tipsy and turned ditzy,keep blabbering.Think she bottled her feelings inside for too long also.And weicheng vomitted.Eeeew.

It's Chinese New yr.But somehow there's not much atmosphere.

I've got lots to say,but I donno how to put it across in a way that u can understand.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ! <3

Yesterday celebrated V-day with Maddy,Soh,Weien,Jali,Jeremy ong,another Jeremy & Bearbear.At last didnt meet up with anyone,cos I slept till 8 plus.Cabbed down to look for them.

Jeremy is one crazy rich fella,bought roses for me for fun.Saw the girls as well,I kissed like 5 girls in total .Haha.Anyway watch a movie and slack till morning.It's just like any other day. :)

STAYOVER AT MADDY'S HOUSE

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My buddies for many yrs :)

HAPPY V-DAY TO ALL !

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!

I PASSED !I GOT 18 POINTS . =D

I'm extremely happy la,cos it's really unexpected.L1R4+CCA=14 .I've got many choices to choose from now,how nice!I tot I might fail Maths again or get 24 cos last yr got 26.I freakin' pass MATHS,tho' only C6.Haha!And best thing is my english got A2,last yr was D7,think they really mark wrong.Oh,and I got A1 for Chinese as well.

I CAN GO POLY NOW~

I'm so glad that I pass,at least didnt disappoint my Daddy and myself.He's really happy as well,he even book a table at Orchard Hotel for dinner.I cant stop smiling now. :D

Time for celebration!More shopping for me now.YAY!

HELLO ppl,now I declare Im JOBLESS once again. Haha!

I've decided not to work there anymore.This job is supposingly to be my longest job but ha, now the shortest record is just one day.Not that I cannot take it or anything,I just dun like it so that's it.So idiotic,always change the schedule.Plus I dun think I can do a good job.

Anyway enjoyed yesterday with Geraldine & Jac,had a day out shopping and chilling.I had jap cuisine for two days straight,kinda sick of it now.My dear gonggong's like a pig la,eat so much.Haha!I'll hafta wait till CNY's over then can meet her to hang out cos no off day for her till then.

Currently I'm in a shopping spree mood,weeeee~

Shucks,I'm getting O's result on Friday.So soon,but well I'm prepared for it.Be it good or bad.But if I happen to fail Maths again,it's like so ..... I dun like ppl commenting abt it,but whatever.Let's see how it goes.

What's with the negative comments regarding me working? HAHA.So not supportive la.I'm trying hard alrite. I deserve a pat on the shoulder. :)

Anyway I only worked for a day since then,cos the beginning gotta try out first.Well it wasnt as tough & tiring as I thought.The best thing is I get to SIT,how great!Standing for 10 hrs straight is totally insane.Oh and I can buy stuff to eat anytime,and the colleagues were friendly.

The booboo part abt it is I hafta rmb the product stuff,like what does each has its functions etc.I'm not really eloquent when it comes to promoting products.Sometimes I find myself wanting to speak out but my voice just doesnt comes out.It's a good experience I suppose,can not only make me more independent and also acquire better communication skills.

Oh,Daddy visited me too.It was a nice surprise tho',he always makes the effort to visit me whenever I get a new job .Maddy,Lim & Nic wee visited me as well,so nice of them.Gee,and some went there but couldnt find me cos I'm not working everyday.Tues I'll be working with Soh,damn happy cos I've got a companion.

Gosh,I had a boring wkend.Nvm abt that,this week I shall shop & head to Sentosa.

Suddenly feel that guys can be fickle as well,not only girls. I do not like the fact that ppl do change after some time,be it their attitude or behaviour.It irks me greatly.Now,where has the faith gone to?

Valentine's day nearing but there's no excitement or anything at all,unlike last yr.Cos I wont be dating with any of the guys,it'd be a waste of time cos they're not like my potential bf.I'd rather celebrate with my dear girls.Come to think of it,the release of O's result is actually nearer than that.HA!Gahhh I'm extremely nervous~

STAYOVER AT ADELIA"S HSE.(some time back)

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Alrite not having a bf isnt that sad after all.I've got my precious ones. :)
It is always refreshing to seek solace from turbulent thoughts & emotions and have girls night out,another way to unwind and have an insouciant night of fun with my gfs.Skipped last outing thus I'm soooo gonna meet them soon!